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UTOPIA.

2011-07-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

everyone has an imaginary utopian world they wish they live in made up in their minds. of course, different people have different views on what a utopia world would be like. like for one, Snookie(from jerseyshore)'s utopia world includes radios playing house music and everyone being tanned, a huge -.- btw. so you can really say that interests, circumstances, lifestyles, influences play a big part on how your own utopian world will be shaped. but snapping back to reality, our lives may be way far from what you call perfect. things might not go our way, people we trust with all our hearts may betray us, lovers cheating behind their other half's back, not getting into the school we want. but this is..life? it can suck real badly sometimes. but we can do nothing other than accept it, move on, push for something greater. we shouldnt allow rejections and betrayals bring us down. To both my sisters, both of you are the most talented, smart and both of you have admirable qualities, be strong. i know you guys can and will pull through. Insyaallah. ilyboth.
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got back from camp a day early. long story. the camp was tiring, my legs currently ache like craaaazyyy&im having the worse sorethroat ever. but, i had fun. made some great friends(most of them in NUS fass too!) and got to catch up with my darlingirritatingfriend nabilah. (:

during the amazing race which was around the central area of spore - had to take photos with random ppl as part of challenge. it was so hot i can die and i ran EVERYWHERE when the last time i ran was napfa during jc last year, gah. &i thought i'll go tanner, but nooo. i just turn red, and burn. awesome

2011-07-10T13:30:00.000-07:00

im not one who cares about what others think. i always feel that i'll act exactly how i wanna act, i'll dress how i wanna dress even if it means wearing something questionable(or ugly, simply put) like my bro's oversized tee and my fave pair of levis, i'll say what i wanna say, i'll do what i wanna do. call me self-absorbed but it actually took me a long time to reach to this stage coz' i used to care about people's opinions/perceptions of me. at that point of time, i remembered shaping myself in accordance to what people think of me which im terribly ashamed of now, coz' it's so stupid to succumb to all this negative pressure! but this pressure is typical now, what with the nature of the society that has made some people feeling this way, making them feel that they need to prove something out of themselves, it's impossible for you to avoid this with platforms like facebook, blogs everywhere. it's come to a point that people care too much,they change coz' they wanna prove that they 'belong', that they're right up there with the 'cool ones'. but wait, how do you exactly define these 'cool ones'. you might not guessed it but these people may have also been influenced by other people that they think are cool too. &this is when a phrase that my cuzzy ever said to me, i found to be disturbingly true, "society kills originality".

so, dont you think the definition of being original is simply an oxymoron? &so, dont you think it's /stupid/not worth it/ to feel intimidated, or feel that you're nothing beside that someone whom you think has a much better life than you? coz' it's kinda of a hidden manipulation in itself? &there's kind of a chain effect shit to this? #thinkaboutit

going on a camp tomorrow till Thu!(:

6th.

2011-07-01T12:17:00.000-07:00

slacking at work today since there're only a few patients coming in.

yep some major slacking going on since i could even take pics of myself. there werent anyone around and i was bored so what can i really do rightt,lol. i think if there were people and i did this, i'll end up being the one who has to see the doctor. anyhoo, had a talk with Mama just now about her teenage life which includes her love life at that point of time and how she met Father. it's super funny coz' hearing how my father courted my mum is just hilarious. but it sounded exactly like him now. like how on the first date, he was the one who talked on and on,lol dt is sooo Father.

okay i better go back to work now.
cant wait for the weekend, i feel like having pastamania for dinner later, might drag Yazid along and i think i might ask Yazid out to town on sunday for some gift-shopping, or mayb shortie-sis or haiza&mai. happy weekend guyyyyz!

2011-06-30T22:07:00.000-07:00

im going to tell myself to stop going out so much;to sit at home, do some household chores, clear up my ultra-messy space in the room that i share with shortiesis and just basically stay at home like a good daughter.

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1. the day that i went to Rex Cinema at Little India to watch KL Gangster (which btw wasnt bad at all) and wore that $2 headband from Daiso out. looking at my hair in that picture reminds me that i did something different to my hair recently, just went through the smoothing treatment and added some layers to my hair coz' it was getting too thick with everything being the same length. but nothing too drastic.

2. it was over at cuzzywuzzy Adilah's house when i slept over there that night. had an awesome time coz' we were all playing around with ___. &everyone got freaked out coz' i became kinda crazy to a point that i sorta looked as if i got possessed. ok fine, i was watching the video that they took of me, &i got freaked out by my ownself. it looked as if a ghost just took over my body for 10 seconds. so what do you think we were playing with? heh :p

3. had some A&W over at Batam during the short weekend trip. it was yummmmeeehhhhhh! i still dont get why there's no A&W in Singapore anymore. nothing can beat it period

4.my favourite kpop girlgroup. i just had to include their new song coz' it's freaking coooooool. &sharing it makes me cool too. lol

i did soo many things but i didnt bother to take pics of any of it, like the batam trip to playing badminton with Yazid at the CC and the impromptu gathering at cuzzy's house, the lunch with Sha&Haiza plus the whole-day trip to jb yesterday with Yazid. i guess im into that lazy mode of bringing out my dslr once again.

anw dreading tomorrow coz i can just predict it would be boring coz' im back at the hospital for 2 days. pffffft. &a quick update on why i havent been blogging this past week was probably coz' i was having major moodswings despite all the outings, a few down moments too but wells, im okay now! (:

2011-06-21T23:03:00.000-07:00

went to the Science Centre with Huda, mum, shortiesis and 2 of my lil' cousins on Monday and honestly it was BORING! it definitely wasnt because of the company i was with but the place itself. gosh, SCIENCE CENTRE IS SUCHA WASTE OF MONEY TO GO! if i wasnt being such a good sister, i prolly wouldnt have followed.

i remember going there years back and when i went again on Monday, almost all the exhibits are the same. there isnt much difference at all. i think Science Centre should totally do something about it, hire a guy to be Einstein, create a huge dinosaur that can move or even walk. i mean whatever that's interesting instead of having boards after boards that have a whole load of shit on how to create electricity. i mean, would kids even bother to read that whole chunk. okay mayb science nerds or the i-wanna-be-Einstein-when-i-grow-up kids but other than that, which kid would wanna read all that.

now, i guess the only thing i liked was the documentary at the omnitheatre. that's it. that's all. how exciting.

in the train on the way to science centre

okay so, mayb there's a second thing that i liked about the trip. my lunch at Macs. coz i was so damn hungry. &of coz i had to get my MCSPICY. yummz

at the ticketing booth. luckily mum got some free tics for all of us or i would have asked her to ask for refund. hah

lol i didnt even know my lil' cousin was doing that face

Huda&her bestf. aww, Huda said they've been bestfs since pri 1 awww. reminded me of my pri. sch bestf, we'r still in contact now! (:

i thought this was cool. coz' the water was going back into the tap rather than dripping out of it

huda was screaming into this tube to hear the echo that it was supposed to produce.. and....

mum wanted to try too! lol so cute

i wanted to see if i could curl up into this circle and soo....

mum wanted to try it out too. lol she was going, "take my picturee!" say whuuut now

ok typing about science centre makes me go bluergh. waste.of.time. dont go there. if anyone asks you to science centre, do yourself a favour and say no. or if they force you to, run. i shall stop complaining now.

sungei buloh

2011-06-20T12:30:00.000-07:00

haha ok no i didnt go to sungei buloh, but i went to Sungei Road and i kept mixing up the names of the two places.

e.g(the night before going Sungei Road - convo with Yazid)
Me: okay okay, dont emo already! later i sell you at Sungei Buloh then you know
Yazid: Heh. Lol bby.. Sungei Buloh is a forest syg -.-
Me: oh really ah? hehe

yep, a bimbo moment over there. anw! have always heard of Sungei Road from the parents, sometimes Dad would just drive pass it, but i've never went there, ever. so Yazid decided to bring me there and since it was a sunday, there were so many people! to add on, it was a pretty hot day.

Sungei Road is definitely a place to go if you dont mind the crowd, if you dont mind having to smell each other's odour(lol) and if you love thrifting. though you can pretty much see lots of junks/stuffs that people throw out being sold by apeks who couldnt care less about customer service there, if you search carefully, there might be something that you might really like. as i would like to say "one's junk is another's treasure" lol i think i read this saying somewhere actually.

but there're definitely alot of old-school stuffs there, from vinyl records, old cameras, vintage boots,i had to round the place 2,3 times before i found 2 close-to-brand-new vintage bags and a $3 vintage sunnies. the key is to be patient and search!

i guess this was where my Alevel papers were marked last year. haha

one of the bags i bought! in great condition!

so of course after the shoving and searching at Sungei Road, Yazid&I went to a nearby hawker centre to eat Ice Kacang and some Soursop dessert. perfect for a hot sunny weather.lol at the oilyface/messy hair/psycho eyes -aftereffects of Sungei Road

Sungei Road was interesting. i felt as if i was back in time when i was there. despite the sweat, the heat from the sun, and the crowd, somehow the atmosphere there just gives off a nice feeling. (:

2011-06-19T12:20:00.000-07:00

okay short post since i have to get ready after this!

Cinta has been insanely cute these days! just one hour ago while i was going through a question with my tuition kid, she just sat on the assessment book without any shame and started playing with my pen just to grab my attention. plus she has this liking of sitting on everything, including ON my mum's tummy. -.- despite having Cinta for over a year now and mum is still very much afraid of her, having Cinta sit on mum's tummy while she's sleeping is not exactly the best idea.

&yesterday Cinta cuddled up beside me while i was watching the last 3 episodes of my hongkong drama on channel 856. how adorable can she be?! it's still ironic tho' that she's the only cat im okay with, while im still very much afraid of other cats.

if you're wondering, yes, she's sitting on a NikeFIT cap. told you she likes to sit on things, tsk

acting cute when you pat her. heh

anyway, have been loving the look of floral cardigans/shrugs. it's suuper pretty! saw one at Dorothy Perkins but am still considering of getting it hmmz.

this is what i mean!

nice, no? anyway heard that there's a new F21 in singapore at Orchard Xchange! it's the largest one and it has men's collection there as well. soo cool! i.wanna.go!
i really have to go get ready now, kbye

2011-06-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

Bruno Mars' Lazy Song shall be my theme song for today. i literally did nothing. i was just in my room the whole day. &all i wanted to do was lay on bed,just stone, with my Iphone playing some of my fave songs. i was so lazy that i didnt want to go out even when Yazid asked me out since he called in "sick" for work today. luckily today's tuition was pushed to tomorrow coz' since i didnt have the mood to even lift a finger, what more would i feel if i were to go on and teach a pri.6 kid maths. plus today was supposed to be spent with the girls but it got cancelled as well.

but i must say the only useful thing i did today was cook Mac&Cheese for myself and lil' sis. it's just the instant Kraft's Cheddar Mac&Cheese one and it was soo simple to make. you literally just need butter, milk and whatever that's included in the box. perfect for a lazy ass like me.

iphone pics simple steps to follow!

but of course stubborn me who suddenly felt like being a chef modified just alil'bit and put salted butter instead of an unsalted one and just regular milk instead of a low fat one. i added more cheddar cheese as well and a slight hint of margarine. but... key ingredient is.....

i swear this makes the whole thing awesomely niceee! coz' im not so much of a cheesy kind of person and prefer a slight more flavour, so i put in grounded white pepper! yummmmz

saw a one-eyed smile when boiling the macaronis! yikes, Illuminati. lol.

i know the macaronis look like maggots from here. tell me about it.

ending product! ok, it doesnt look that appetising but i promise it's really nice!! heh(:

a fulfilling lunch it was, kinda. heh.

i should really start checking my formspring and stop being all lazy about it. i shall go answer this week's and last week's qns and not anything before it coz' i dont know whether the people who ask it would even bother check again.

formspring qns:
1)u love who? ME RITE?? - lol who r you?
2)why is your dad's name sajali? - why do you think he's named that way?
3)assalammualaikum? - waalaikumsalam (?)
4)i like your blouse!!!! hahaha -aisha - thx babee! (:

SIOL garden!

2011-06-15T23:27:00.000-07:00

lol pardon the title. yazid and i were just making fun of the fact that some people call Seoul Garden as siol and not Seoul as in - soul. but dont get me wrong,i was one of them too once upon a time. heh. Yazid treated me to our late lunch cum dinner at Seoul Garden today and there's only one reason that justified why we had to go there!

there're now monitor screens there! so instead of having to keep on going up and walking to the buffet spread every now and then, you can order everything on the monitor and walaaa the waiters will send them to you, right to your table! cool shit huh. okay maybe these monitors have been there for a very long time and yazid and i are probably the last two persons on earth who know about it.

sidetrack: i ever had a bad experience at Seoul Garden coz' i remembered eating it with a friend years ago and he forced me to eat till i finish every last bit of food eventho i was suuper full. i felt like vommitting afterwards. isnt that abuse, hmph!

okay epic scene no. 1: i confidently pressed on the screen thinking that it was a touchscreen kind of thing but no, Seoul Garden not that high-tech yet. heh. thinking back, i actually pressed it several times after the first time pressing it coz' there was no reaction from the screen. -.- it was only until Yazid told me that there's a mouse then i was like, "ohhhhh hehe"

Huda was looking through the pictures in the dslr just now, and she was like, "kakak, why abg yazid look gayish here" haha i dont know my dear.

haha stop it already ah take pictures must include the monitor screen!

impatienthungrygal92@imhungry.com

FOOD'S HERE!

true meaning behind this picture: he's comparing the roundness of the egg with my face. THANKS ah. oops sorry for the awkward face lol

my plate. cockles and a whole load of chicken that Yazid placed on my plate, after this picture, ordered another one whole plate more of cockles. LOVE COCKLES.

which brings to epic scene no.2, i thought we could grill cockles, so i was fighting over it with Yazid who insisted we cant. but stubborn me actually called Sheerah to ask whether we can grill cockles or not, she didnt reply so i actually texted her. i was replied with -____- and a no. lol.

caught on camera, trying to open up the cockle shell. heh

&sooooo, i got suuuper full after 2hours, so the picture below is me ranting how full i already was.

okay give up check fb. haha.

Thank you bby for the treat! i'm not eating for another 2days now! hehe

2011-06-14T17:20:00.000-07:00

i'm enjoying the fact that most of my closed ones have androids/iPhones/BB as their handphones now. coz' all of them have been answering my text messages promptly which was pretty rare in the past coz' i had to wait for 1000years for them to reply back sometimes.

now with internet access and games on their phones*coughHaizacough*, they will pretty much hold onto their phones the whole day,so when i do text them, there'll be instant response. yay no more long waiting time already! but anw, i was looking through my messages/WhatsApp the other time and was reading some of the conversations i had, was laughing at how funny and silly some of the convos were. no wonder all this while i've been laughing to myself in public msging these people.

Conversation no. 1 - with Yazid.

he was like "ure leaving me?" say whuuut noww -.- dramatic boyf i have. anw check out my batt power, yes i always let it go low, sometimes all the way till 3% sometimes. heh

Conversation no. 2 - with the girls.
we were at starbucks and we decided that instead of talking to one another, we would whatsapp so imagine 4 girls cramming with one small round table in the middle, just texting and laughing like crazy, without saying a word!

Haiza was pretty much bullied in this conversation coz' she ignored us when we asked her to buy us drinks! she was too busy playing CityFarm,CityChain, Cityshit(i dont know what's the name of that game. heh) coz she didnt want her supplies to get spoilt. -.- &we were at starbucks and sha asked for naan. -.-

Conversation no. 3 - with cuzzywuzzy.
not translating this convo but msging this girl is alwayyyyyyys epic

oh anw the wedding on Sunday, was there with Adilah from 12 all the way till 5. haha we kaypoh followed them to the guy's side and back to the girl's side. &this clever girl here, yes me, charged the dslr's batt before going out but guess what, forgot to bring out the camera in the end. awesome, thumbsup. so only pictures from the iPhone :/

Yazid and his pretty sister,Safiah!

i made fun of her necklace coz' it reminded me of something a monk would own, it was huuge! soo sorry baby :/ hehehehe

i tell you this haikal/haiqal is suuuuper funnyyy. now botak already, coz' he's entering ns today! hahaha kept making fun of me eversince i asked for Bandung when there isnt even Bandung at the wedding.

dont ask why my kebaya is all scrunched up like that, i have noo idea myself and why is yazid's face like that, god knows.

that's all now.
should i paint my nails red/blue/minty green? hmmmmz. anw there's a brat screaming from this morning and irritating the shit out of me. ugh.

2011-06-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

currently waiting for mum, dad and Huda to bring back home my McSpicy. i swear that's like the only thing i eat each time i go McDonalds. &the fries too. ok and maybe McChicken. anyhoo went to Yazid's cousin's solemnisation ceremony today. the bride was sooo pretty! love her pink costume! going to the real thing tomorrow as well.. i love weddings, sucha happy ocassion! makes me wanna get married too! haha ok not really, not now at least.

anw met Yazid's nephew, Irwan. omg he's soooo freakinggg cuuuuteeeee!
i let him play with my Iphone camera and so now there're dozens of his picture in my phone.

&of coz' i have to take pictures with him. he's gonna be one handsome boy when he grows up! hope he stays fair. not like his uncle, when Yazid was small, he was super fair then suddenly dont know what happened along the way! hahaha

cute, no?? ((:

2011-06-10T12:20:00.000-07:00

I AM CURRENTLY OBSESSED with:
1) karaoke-ing! used to dread it but now..omg i feel like going karaoke every single time! this seriously must be the influence of my own family. they have always been a fan of karaoke-ing(with the exception of me) and we karaoke almost every single month esp if there're any family gatherings/events/holidays. so after years of family-singing and being dragged to karaoke lounges, im hooked to it too!

2) tomyam banmian! used to eat this each time i went banquet but i got tired of it. &now this obsession is backkkk! i swear i can eat it everyday, no kidding.

so on Wednesday, of course i had to ask Yazid, Adilah and supposedly AzimAdam(but this guy didnt show up till 1000 hours later! -.-) to go karaoke. initial plan was to go karaoke at Geylang, yes that scary ulu place, but then, we just decided to go to the one at Safra Jurong. &it was soo much fun! we belted out songs from all kinds of genres, ranging from rnb, hip hop, club songs, ballads and even Nasyid. the last one was suggested by my boyf. -.-

shortiesis was having her roadshow at Jurong Point so she met up with us for a teeny while!

i was talking to AzimAdam a.k.a Yazid's cousin asking him to come quickly but of course it was to no avail considering that he came at 7pm!

so i thought the pricing of the Kbox at Safra was pretty okay since you're able to karaoke up till 7pm but what i couldnt understand was why that bowl of snacks above was freaking 7bux. i mean seriously? i can even buy those snacks from a Mama shop for less than 2bux. tskkkkk.

adilah kicked off the singing!

i tell you this guy started off singing really softly when he was singing the ballads but when we changed the song to the Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO, he started singing/screaming at the top of his voice and he even shifted the tables to dance, lol it was hilarious and i took a video of him and Adilah singing/dancing to it, but it's in adilah's iPhone.

&from then on, when we duet with him, his voice would outshine us coz' his voice became louder.

i think we were singing that Aerosmith's song. that explains my strained face. lol

then this is me giving up.

NASYID!

after the karaoke went to the Bangles Park - this was what Adilah called it.

&finally AzimAdam decided to come! the picture above was a dare coz' we were playing the truth or dare game. he did this dare in less than 5mins! but the game was fun since everyone was so enthusiastic. &some of the dares were pretty tough ok!

e.g of dare - had to call Sha and told her i was pregnant in a panicked, shivering voice. Sha believed it but of course at the end of the call, i got cursed up and down. hahahaha.

fun day! &i better start uploading these pictures onto fb before Adilah screams at me. hahaha

anw yesterday met up with my girls! &guess what we ate?? TOMYAM BANMIAN. yummmmmmmmmz actually it was coz' i wanted to eat it so they accompanied me. awww shoooo schweeeeettttt. lol

omnomnomnom slurp slurp~

Starbucks

anw i really regret not getting that Almond hand&nail cream that Mai got coz' it smelled soooo good! hmphhh

yay! this post is doneeee! imagine i wrote this long of a post in the wee hours of today but suddenly blogger decided to be a jerk and log off on its own! i shall coop myself in my room now and hide myself under a blankie coz' Huda has her friends over at our house and they're watching a horror movie and damn the sound effects are scaryy!

2011-06-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

OMG IM FREAKING PISSED COZ' I TYPED OUT A POST ABOUT MY WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY AND SUDDENLY MY BLOGGER ACCOUNT DECIDED TO LOG OFF ON ITS OWN. I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW THAT'S EVEN POSSIBLE BUT IT DID! GAHHHH. SHALL BLOG THE WHOLE THINGAGAIN TMR. *SOBS* FML. IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF NOW KBYE.

feast for the eyes

2011-06-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

i went online-hunting for accessories last night, just because. thought that it would at least satisfy some sort of weird craving in me that wants to buy at least something. yes, im odd.

so let me show you the 10 accessories that caught my eye. you would notice that i've always been the kind that lean towards gold-plated accessories.

Oasis Long Cluster Necklace

River Island's Long Tassle Necklace.

Talullah tassle earings

French connection shell charmbracelet

House of Harlow 1960 14ct Gold Plated Triangle Bracelet With Tassels And Clear Epoxy Crescent

sooo pretty! other cool shizz below.

reminds me of those ancient-themed movies

look at the hand harness that the model's wearing! gor-geous!

body and belly harness. i know there's a higher end version of this that most hollywood celebrities have but i dont remember the brand. the higher end has swarovski crystals on them. just thought this was cool. heh.

aint all of this pretty! ):

superdad

2011-06-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

happy birthday beloved Father.

i dont know where to start in thanking you for all the things you have done for the family and I. I may not be the best and obedient daughter out there, i might not even turn out to be a great daughter religion-wise, but im grateful, grateful that you've never given up on me and grateful that you've always stayed on patiently highlighting the importance of religion in my life. while i still may be alil' stubborn in this aspect, you've never once, forced it upon me, only guiding me through it and im ever so thankful for being so patient with me. thanks for being so understanding Father coz' you know that one day, i will learn to accept everything with an open heart without much hesitation anymore, Insyaallah.

with a great sense of humour and always a sense of fun in you, i can never find a better Father. I LOVE YOU DADDDDD. i know this part i will usually start making a baby voice and run towards you to hug you but i always get rejected coz' you always say "eeeehhh go away" hahaha.

eventho' you said that i already made you proud by entering NUS, i wanna do more coz' you definitely deserve it! (:

sidetrack: you brought back a cake from Carousel! love you more! hehehee

my dad is an awesome man!

random reminder TO SELF: 1)STOP WATCHING HAUL VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE COZ IT'S MAKING YOU ITCH TO SHOPPPPPPP. 2)STOP LOOKING AT ONLINE SHOPS, ASOS.COM, GOJANE.COM AND FOREVER21.COM

im thankful that me and Yazid cancelled our flea market plan today. phewwwww~

2011-06-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

Yazid and I have been trying our best to save up coz' we are going for a holiday at the end of the year with shortiesis and the rest. i know it's still a loong way to go but for me, i really have to start saving now knowing that i'll still be spending alil along the way eventho i always say im saving. heh. luckily the GSS is now on, so spending wont really create a dip, heh. &by saving now, at least i wont have to worry that much when the end-of-year holiday comes about coz' i would already have saved up by then, yay!

but it's really difficult! i go out almost every single day, and even if i dont spend on clothes/accessories/shoes, i'll be spending it on food/transport! esp food! like today, ate at Sakura - which btw, has one of the best Tom Yam in the entire Singapore in my opinion.

singapore is such an expensive country. luckily, i still have my tuition fees and expenses that mum gives me. ok fine, i should be grateful coz' im not tight on my so-called finances but i really should save. it's beneficial for my future(or rather, holiday, heh), as said by the Finance exec. of the family - shortiesis. heh.

anywaaaayyyyy, have u guys seen the huuuge Paul Frank LipSmacker?? i bought it yesterday coz' i thought it looked so cute and it matches my iphone cover as well! lol i know this is ironic and contradictory to my wanting to save shizz k shutup i cant help it, it was cute

it's as big as my Stage Wondergloss! too bad this picture tht i took on my Iphone doesnt show how cute and fat it is. it smells really nice too!

see how major it is! its like, the measurement of the distance from my chin to my nose! lol getting wayy too excited here. Haiza said it looks like a gluestick. haha.

imagine if i were to take this thing out in the toilet, infront of the mirror to use it. everyone would be like whuuut.

ok this pic no link to my lipsmacker. hehe a pic before i went out just nw.

bought dad's bdae present just now! hope he likes it!
Cinta just scratched me, and there's blood now. awesome. gahh

2011-06-02T23:26:00.000-07:00

i laughed my ass off when i watched this video and listened to the lyrics. the thing is, the guy who sang this song has a really nice voice and the tune of the song is not bad at all! 1:55 onwards was kinda sweet i must admit.

BRIDGE(from 1:55)
But behind the scenes she means the world to me.
Wanna tell her that she's beautiful, and show her that she's loved.
Hold her hand when she's scared, tell her how much I care...

that must be the only sweet part of the whole lyrics. the rest is pretty much mean. lol. WATCH IT!

if all guys are that mean, im sure girls everywhere will turn into lesbians. no kidding heh.

rambles.

2011-05-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

just got out from my 45mins long shower. loove long showers, it's like a mini therapy. but of course, mum wouldnt understand that coz' she thought i fainted in the shower and so she kept knocking on the toilet door -.-anw i just realised hw depressed i sound like in ytd's post, i sound as if i have no drive for life anymore and im going to commit suicide anytime soon, lol. oh wells dont worry it wasnt to that extent that i've become suicidal.

what made me felt better was the talk with Yazid and a whole load was off my shoulder. love that stupid boy. &oh since it's gonna be 12am soon, happy advanced 5th monthsary bby! meet you later after your school!

1) met my cuzzywuzzy today. i tell you May must some cursed month, everyone's having major problems but it's okay coz' June's here, and the only thing i can hope for now is to have a better month ahead for me and the loved ones.

2)ate waffles at gelare. tuesday half-price off! yumyum

3) i vomitted. my mum said i've been eating too much junkfood thats why. THANKS mum

4) walked around fep for a full 1hr to find a nice salon for adilah's haircut. settled in at Klearcut in the end.

5) adilah and i visited Yazid at work. both of them met for the first time and clicked! hehe so happy!

adilah was unhappy with her haircut eventho i told her it was okay. so there she was trying to make her new haircut work while i was taking th picture, ignoring her rants. lol. spot my shiny forehead!

&yes, i continued ignoring her, lol.

but in the end, she was quite happy with the haircut. confused girl. heh.
i feel like having chicken porridge now. hmmmmmmm :/

2011-05-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

so i got woken up by someone early this morning coz' she wanted to meet me. dragged myself out of bed, bathed, got ready and suddenly someone went mia - never reply my msges/pick up my call. disturb my beauty sleep only. luckily that someone's my bestfriend! hehehe stupid girl.

so i camwhored on the webcam while waiting for her phonecall. see, where can get friend like this. im sure others will just go back to sleep! at least i in my own world, go webcam. haha.

results of the loooong(actually not so long ah heh, feel like exaggerating only) wait.

ball of cheek. i know the picture's like 'whuuut' lol cant help it

anw today is such a sucky day, have been ranting everything to Sha and when i got back home, MORE problems. awesomeeeeee. my life is great. gah, fml.

the world is seriously a scary place, i wish i can just be stuck in a time warp and remain as a 6yrold so that i can be free from any sort of problems. but of course, we dont have the power or the might to do so and we just have to go through this, like it or not. we have to meet different people, work out their personalities and either be friends with them or the opposite. but of course, you never know, coz' even the one that you call a friend/loved one/close one can just stab u right in the back or disappoint you and hurt you like you've never been hurt before. this sucks! and sucky is life. &im 19, awesome. have 100000000 more problems to encounter. bluergh. i dont even have the strength to say 'bring it on' anymore.

some people are fighting under my blk right now, screaming at the top of their lungs. see what problems can do to you? you break down, scream and cry, not even a hint of shame already, u just dont care anymore coz' u just wanna let it all out even if it means letting everyone else to hear. problems can make you insane, you cant even think straight anymore. problems are like a mental/emotional abuse.

can i coop somewhere in timbuktu so i face no conflicts/problems? pretty plsss...? ):

-edit-

talked to Yazid on the phone. felt soo much better.

chubbycheeks.

2011-05-29T22:50:00.000-07:00

i've been eating wayyy too much nowadays. you can ask anyone and everyone who sees me on a daily basis and they'll tell you i eat ALOT. so i dont eat at all perfect timings of the respective 3 meals of the day, but when i usually have my meal(which is usually late evening and that would be considered as my lunch), i will still get hungry at night, so only 2,3hrs after that late lunch, i go on to eat dinner AND around 12+am i'll get hungry, so i'll have my supper.

in between all these meals, i'll eat snacks like a fatty and i cant stop. &it doesnt help at all since i have tons of food and junks at home plus a whole other fridge specially for these junkfood which includes lots of vitagen, chocolates, icecream, instants. UNHEALTHY! my house can turn into Mama shop already!

so dont be surprised if you see me walking down the streets the next time, like this.

went to 7-11 just now and spent 25bux on junks. guilty as charged. :/

bought this instant spaghetti, those kind where you just pop into the microwave for 3-5mins and it's all ready to eat just coz i've always wanted to know how it tastes like. i bought the Chicken Bolognaise one.

yes, i was infront of the computer when eating this. this is the Chicken Bolognaise. i know the quality of the pic sucks, coz i used my iPhone.

Huda's Carbonara Penne.

verdict: IT TASTES AWEFUULLL! NEVER EVER GOING TO BUY IT AGAIN, EVER EVER. i didnt even manage to finish mine eventho' i was trying really hard to.

anw! my top 3 favourite snacks now! hersheys (i prefer the hershey kisses tho' coz' u can just pop it into your mouth and eat like a dozen in 5mins, for me at least. see! im such a fatty!), the green peas crackers - all time favouriteeee! and the Nestle's Butterfinger bar - my newest obssession. it tastes something like a Malay traditional snack!

i cant believe i wrote a post on junkfood. omg. &i was a total couch potato this whole weekend, didnt go out, and besides having tuition, i just watched horror movies, reruns of Boys over Flowers, played the comp and EAT. oh noooooooooooo. :S

2011-05-27T02:10:00.000-07:00

i've been highly disturbed and disgusted by the actions of someone. didnt think that after the last text, when i thought things were alright, he would sneakily go behind my back and say that i disrespected him. i DISRESPECTED him? after my initial msg to him abt an issue, his reply to me was really disrespectful and of coz' with such disrespect, i then replied him disrespectfully as well. coz' if u dont respect me, why should i? you want the respect, you have got to earn it,no? im absolutely angered and disappointed by this but im going to ignore this incident and i wont even bother with him anymore. this kind of people is simply not worth my time!

it's been a looong time since i write ppl off but this has been bugging me eversince a text was shown to me. i just hate it when things are done behind my back esp if its someone i know. hmphhhhhh. ):

....

anw! on a positive note,im sure everyone has a favourite place where they like to go when they are free, just to talk with their loved one and just to enjoy the scenery. a place where they can just sit and talk for hours, without being disturbed by noise and crowds and all that hu-ha.

mine used to be the place where now Woodlands Waterfront sits. before the whole Waterfront was being built, the place there was always so peaceful. it overlooked the causeway, so right across the sea, was Johor. but now, its become a highly-frequented place. &call me an anti-social or something, i hate crowds. haha.

so Yazid and I found a nice place. and this shall now be deemed as my favourite go-to place. im sure some do know about this place already!

(agn, most of the pictures were taken by Yazid so, sorry if there're many pictures of me,hehe)

such a nice place. was disappointed though coz the sunset on Wednesday wasnt as nice as the first time we went there. i remembered the first time we went there and the sun was setting, the entire sky was cast a beautiful shade of orange and the entire boardwalk just shone nicely reflecting off from the last bits of the sun. miss that place already! (:

2011-05-25T13:33:00.000-07:00

spent yesterday's afternoon watching Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa on dvd. it's surprisingly really good. didnt expect the KRU productions to come up with a movie where all the graphics and the quality of the pictures to be almost up to standard to the Western movies. okay fine, maybe i have this steroetypical mindset before i watched the movie that there would be obvious scenes where they used greenscreen and stuff. coz' hey, it's a Malay movie and they've never done this kind of genre of movies before, (i can only rmb one good movie alike to this which was Hang Tuah) but after watching it,i have a total different impression. while the storyline is alil' predictable, all in all it's not bad at all. quite proud of this movie! (:

anw some pictures on Sunday where me, shortiesis and Sarah went Karaoke at PartyWorld Civics before meeting up with Sha and Sheerah. it's been long since i Karaoke-d. didnt realise that all 3 of us were facing alil problems and were turning to Karaoke to cheer us up coz' everyone was trying to cover up their own problems.

oh wells. im sure something good will be waiting for us after this down times. coz' there's that saying "there's a silver lining in every cloud" (lol i hope i got the saying right)

getting wayy excited here with the foot massager. haha

going off to eat lunch now. i shall be punctual today! yes i shall.

the weekend.

2011-05-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

feeling alil' down these days, not quite sure why myself. but everything now seems quite blurry, making it difficult for me to make out what's good for me and what's not.&this is rare, coz' i usually can draw a fine line between the both. so i've been bottling quite a couple of stuffs to myself. &everyone knows it isnt healthy considering the fact that it's making me paranoid and ultra moody. just when things are sailing smoothly, there are always something that crops up, life is full of surprises i guess?

hmm so i guess the weekend was kinda of a cheerup for me,met up with my darlings Haiza and Sha after sucha long time, then met Sheerah on Sun(eventho' it's only for a few hrs :/ ). Have missed them sooo much. too bad Mai wasnt able to make it on Sat, but it's okay since she had more important and crucial stuff to attend to.

back to the main point, as my title suggests..my weekend. hmm let's start withh...
Friday

Yazid and I are probably the most random people on the entire earth. since he didnt had school on Friday, we went to mbs to settle a couple of his workstuff coz' he's no longer working there, so after that, we went around walking like complete tourists around the mbs area.

let's look at some tourist-sy pictures, shall we? Yazid took most of the pics so nice pictures are all thanks to him, hee (no editing coz' i dont feel like it, heh)

boy was he excited when he got in touch back with a dslr. -.-

anw! after walking around, we got thirsty so we went to the Cold Storage Specialty Store but we got alil' too excited coz' apparently the cold storage outlet there sells more imported food/drink products which are basically, products that we rarely see in normal supermarkets and soo, we bought groceries. &it's not as if we have a house or smtg for the groceries, another -.- case.

in the store

we got three bags from there!

and so what did we get?

instant macaroni&cheese and hommus dip! this was for me actually. the hommus dip im gonna share with shortiesis since she loves eating hommus each time we go arab st.

Yazid got this coz' he thought the whole packaging was super cool & this drink came out in Men's Health Magazine! for what apparent reason, i have no idea. lol

some yummy chicken wings we got as well. yazid was saying, "now i can fly since i've eaten the wings" say whuut -.- anw we got more but i shant bore you guys with all the things we got.

after our random visit to mbs, we went to West Coast, to get the Indian Rojak coz' both of us have been craving for it for the longest time and everyone knows the Rojak at West Coast is zeeeee bestt! totally reminded me of childhood times coz' the cousin lived near there last time and her dad would always buy food from the same hawker centre whenever my family visited their house.

we went over to west coast park and ate it by the sea. act romantic onlyy. hehe.

Saturday

i ate sooo much on Saturday! met up with Haiza first coz' Sha woke up late -.- and by the time i was with Haiza, i was super hungry coz' i hadnt had my lunch, so we went to ljs and i ate while Haiza accompanied me. but once we reached Bugis, the girls were hungry, so we went to Fish&Co. and no, i didnt just accompanied them, i too, had a full meal. tskk what am i turning into

anw went Bugis and bought 3 makeup items from Stage coz' they had a Moving Out Sale where all their items were 80% off! can u imagine that! totally heavily discounted! thank God for Sha's friend who informed her about the sale.

dont ask why is she wearing shades in the restaraunt. my bestfriend here is alil tingtong dts why. heh.

my pasta! omnomnom!

again, dont ask. heh

so of course after all our random shopping of makeup, my iphone casing which i LOOOOVE, shades frm F21, blablabla, of course we went to rest at Starbucks.

Sha called this expression of Haiza's as her high face.

love these girls, dont know what i'll do without them. have been together with them eversince sec 1, while some of us might have changed along the way, im glad our friendship is still going strong. many(x100) years to come okay girls! (:

i dont know why but blogging is like a stress-reliever for me. posting up all these happy moments make me all cheered up now. is it just me hhmmmm, oh wells (:

CH(part 2)

2011-05-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

i've been so occupied lately. went to exercise at ecp with Yazid the other time -cycled and played frisbee(we are currently keeping a one-week-must-exercise-once regime, dont laugh coz' we really wanna keep fit lol.)and today we randomly went to mbs and ate rojak at West coast which wass delicious btw and ironic coz' we kinda ate alot so the exercise on wed kinda went to waste. and tmr most probably,im going Bugis with the girls coz' there's some sale, hee! not to mention the tuitions im having.

plus, im having this weird sleeping routine. sleeping really late and waking up real early.

anw! some more pictures from the Cameron Highland trip. almost didnt want to upload this but since im on the computer, why noooooooot (: first few pictures were taken on the second day when we went to a waterfall for a swim and played with water.

who's the odd one out?? ME. was all geared up to swim at the waterfall with my tracksuit and all. &if ure thinking of wearing shorts to swim there, THINK AGAIN coz the water was freeeeeeeezing cold! &yeah i was fidgeting, hence the face -.- so of course we had to take another picture, no?

daddy's the shortest! hahaha

so yes, my dad adopted a child into our family. not one but..

..TWO! so here's the other child! hahaha ok dont go all gullible on me nw, of coz' it's not true.

CH quite hip&trendy leh,otw to the waterfall we saw Starbucks! bet you didnt expect tht!

okay so this part i got lazy to edit.. hehehe.

cold weather + steamboat= puurrrfect combo!

this is the yummiest dish of all! omnomnom!

&of course you cant leave Cameron Highland without strawberries. love them! esp when dipped with chocolate!

omgxxx lookzz atzz himmzz shoo cutezz!

thats th end! byezzzz nowwz.

CH (part 1)

2011-05-19T16:09:00.000-07:00

so for the short weekend trip, dad booked the Cluny Lodge at Cameron Highland for 3days 2nights. it's been quite some time since i went Cameron Highland, the last time was probably last year, or last 2 years? plus, compared to the hot sunny spore, weather there is really nice!

i was more intrigued with the lodge we were staying in coz' the entire house is awesome! found out that it was previously owned by the British goverment during the colonial times - which makes it doubly awesome! since the house is huge(4 storeys), there're so many things to explore like the secret rooms in the house that kinda make it quite scary at night, the stairway that leads to a playground behind the house, the shed where the caretaker of the house lives. every part of the house is so interesting and there's such a great history behind it! (Y)

since i was so stoked with the house, i took picture of almost every part of it. skip to the last few pics if you want to see pictures with real humans in it.

the back of the house

the stairway

huda acting like a monkey, climbing out of the back window -.-

one of the scary secret rooms!

we had a "who looks cuter" competition!

competitor no.1

competitor no. 2

competitor no. 3 - my ultra cool uncle wearing hoodie

competitor no. 4 - my mummy with her wooly shrug that makes her look like a lamb lol

ok no prize for guessing who looks cuter. coz obviously they cannot beat competitor no. 1 who is suuuuuper cute.

pardon my nyonya-ish floral Uniqlo jumpsuit,its just really warm and comfy. walked around Cameron like this lol.

every holiday, its a must for us to eat durian! yumyum!

still have more pics but i will do a post on it tmr or something. photobucket is so slow at uploading pics! im hungry now! wanna go eat byeeez.

2011-05-17T13:35:00.000-07:00

back from the short trip over the weekend with the family.
shall post pics of them soon, if i feel like it,heh.

anw, downloaded this app the other time, and im obssessed with it!
so imagine how i will look like in 40 years to come?

i think the lines on my forehead will be the main focus lor, coz' i have too big a forehead. :/

Huda.

at least Huda looks like a cute old granny.

Brother.

Yazid LOL LOL LOL. meet the grumpy ol' man from SP. lolllllll

ok i shall go take a rest now. had tuition at 11am just now, gonna have another one at night. :/

random-osity.

2011-05-12T08:52:00.000-07:00

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1. current nail colour - topshop's Airplane
2. couple stuff that i have with Yazid. couple watches that i got for the both of us, mine's in hot pink while Yazid has the one in candy blue. fourskin's red pair of shoes - this, Yazid got one for me and himself.
3. acting like a fatty with a chocolate sundae in my hands. focus of the picture: my face looks really round in this picture!
4. one of my very good friends whom i miss oh-so much. always so busy lah this girl! :/
5. i lol-ed about 1000 times when i saw this pic! so this is me wearing a facial sheet mask at night. yes, im vain *flicks hair* heh
6. curious Cinta!
7. just a picture of the sisters and i when we were taking a rest at McCafe at ShawHouse. this pic is actually to redeem my ugly state in pic no. 5 and my fatty face in pic no. 3. hehe.

formspring qns:
u really honestly love your boyfriend?? - yes i do.
u and ur boyfie how long alredi? :) - 4 months plus (:

2011-05-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

out of the thousands korean girl groups out there, 2ne1 and miss A are definitely my favourites. others are just like bluergh - with all the act cute girly frilly shit going on. damn psyched to find out that they've come out with new songs.

2ne1 - LOVE their style omg. and CL's hair make me wanna have my long hair back. look at her updo at 0:05 and her curly side-hair at 2:41. now i feel like chopping someone's hair and stitching it up to mine. pfft

miss A - wished that they would come up with a better music video! me dont likey likey the video. ):

i am a swimmer!

2011-05-10T23:43:00.000-07:00

went swimming with Yazid today. weather has been scorching hot these days so, i randomly decided to go swimming!

this reminds me of a conversation with Yazid and Syafiq after swimming.

Me: eh Syafiq, your friend here kental go swim at the medium pool. end up i swim at the deep pool alone. i swim lap you know!

Syafiq: (laughing at Yazid already)

Yazid: eh you dont talk much. speak as if you swim how many laps only, you only swam one lap okay!

so instead of Yazid being the joke, it was the other way round. -.- i couldnt even swim half a lap, coz i was already panting like one freak. after the one lap, i just laid down on the chair there, before entering the medium pool with yazid. then went back home, said to the parents, "that's it, swimming is just not for me"

look at my rudolf's nose

anw heard Macs seaweed shaker fries are out! I WANT TO EAT IT. but McDonalds was damn packed just now. nvm shall go eat it tmr! (:

formspring qn(i know i never ever check it before but decided to answer the most recent qn, heh):
Which tracker u use to track the number of visitors of ur blog?

i dont use any tracker. i just check the "Stats" section thats provided by blogger. they will show you the number of people who read your blog for each day. (:

chalet.

2011-05-09T23:07:00.000-07:00

realised that there were barely any pictures of me this time. there were only a few of it towards the end, and in those pictures im not exactly in the best state coz' of my barefaced and unbathed self lol.

&from these pictures you can see how huge my family is!

why is my dad like this, WHYYY. zzzz

makciks convention

look at my wake-up-in-the-morning-lazy-to-bathe face. note: i went home to bathe ok! we were leaving early coz' people have to go vote and i woke up late, so no time to bathe. lol i swear im not always unhygenic! promise! haha

yay eco club!

fun chalet! now im going to go watch Jersey Shore. byeeeeeeeez

2011-05-08T23:55:00.000-07:00

watched the results for s'pore's general election last night and never thought i would say this about politics, but it was exhilirating! i wonder what was i doing last 5 years, not watching the results. anyway, i, for one hand, was quite happy with the results. as you can probably guess already which camp i clearly supported, i do hope that the ruling party wont be too comfortable in their own skin.

considering that percentages for votes have dipped for them just shows that eventho' they've been the ruling party for many years, people do change their minds and it's evident in this election. &if the ruling party is not going to do anything about it and make some changes in the next 5 years, Singaporeans would definitely see through it and results would be different in the next election.

anyhoo, the newscaster last night made a reminder saying that NSP refers to National Solidarity Party and not Nicole Seah Party. i was laughing like crazyyy to know that some people really think that it's the latter and not the former.

...

anyway, spent my weekend at a family chalet. had so much fun seeing the cousins and everyone else. i dont know how many times ive said this but i love family gatherings coz' everyone's there and you can catch up on things. it's rare esp coz' everyone's growing up and they're busy.

im not putting up the pics for the chalet yet. too lazy. probably tmr? just putting up these pictures of Lateef! this baby is superr cute. his legs alone are like big fat juicy drumsticks. lol.

omg how cuuuuteeeeee is he! billion-dollar smile!! &look.at.his.arms!

lol im sucha paparazzi when it comes to babies. i have like 100 photos of him in my dslr and a bunch of others in my iphone 4. hahaha.

im supposed to sleep early right now since i have to teach tuition early tmr morning at tmpines(!!!) but i cant sleep and im feeling super sticky right now. i dont want to complain too much about the weather but it has been freaking hot these days that i get super restless. mr weather, please get better soon and not become so obnoxiously hot. :/

10 random facts.

2011-05-05T15:05:00.000-07:00

i happened to read a post on this the other time and found it interesting, so i thought why not do it myself. heh

1) i love taking long hot showers. among my family members, i'll be in the bathroom the longest. i can just stand under the hot shower with my Iphone 4 playing almost all the songs on my playlist coz i wont be stepping out of the shower till my entire body turns red. really bad habit tho!

2) tho' i dont really want to admit this, i guess i can be a real goof, only to those people really close to me tho. coz' these people have seen me do the goofiest/silliest/stupidest thing on the entire earth. can be pretty blur as well esp coz i usually zone out when people's talking and when i snap back to reality, i lost track of what they're saying -.-

3) im not a multi-tasker! who says girls can multitask? coz i absolutely cant! im really bad at it. esp when im texting, i cant have someone talking to me coz' i wouldnt catch what the person is saying. but i'll always nod my head to show that im listening when i really am not. heh but if it's in class, im texting and there's a teacher upfront, it's a whole different story, coz' for that, i can somehow listen to what's the teacher's saying.

4) im not a big fan of plain water. i can drink sodas/sweetened drinks for every of the 3 meals and every single day as well. favourite drink would be Sweet talk's Peach Milkshake. (BTW another random thing: love ANYthing peach-flavoured! peach yogurt, peach tea, peach-flavoured sweets, YUMMEH!)

5) used to dress up all the time,very particular about what i wore whenever i go out. but not up till the start of the year, i start wearing simple loose tees or tanks, big sweaters, or sometimes a shirt i pick out from my brother's wardrobe, with either my uniqlo slim-fit boyf jeans or my Levi's slim-straight cut jeans. occassionally, i do dress up tho' but not as often anymore.

love audrina patridge casual style!

6) i know there's the saying "dont judge a book by its cover" but its kinda human nature that when you see someone for the very first time, you would either have a negative or positive first impression based on what you see on the other person's outer appearance. &that's what i tend to do so usually if i have a bad impression on the other person, i will just avoid that person and wont even bother making friends, coz my impression of her/him has been tainted. I KNOW IT SOUNDS REALLY BAD, but i cant help it sometimes!

but, of course, my judgements can be wrong at times, coz i've been or rather, i AM friends with people whom i have a first bad impression on before!

7) i love to look at pretty girls! i dont know whether im the only one who likes looking at people of the same gender and dont have that tendency at the same time, but i loooove looking at pretty girls! &when i see one, i'll always either say to Yazid/my elder sis- "omg omg i think im turning into a lesbian" and of coz' they will have the same -.- response! but i have partners when spotting pretty girls - Haiza and the cousins! esp Adilah - psychotic ass stalks rather than just spot-look-move one with life, lol

speaking of this, watch this video of Jennifer Lopez's latest song. she looks freeeeeaking hottt! omg!

8)i am a procrastinator. in schoolwork and recently, keeping fit. told myself a hundred times that the next day im going to go for a good jog then a swim. but that day never comes. coz' i always wake up in the afternoon or im just plain lazy. that's it, i have to accept the fact now that im going to turn unhealthily obese in the near future.

9) when im out having lunch/dinner with you, i usually talk quite alot. and sometimes i talk more than i eat. so i always end up not finishing my food coz' talking too much somehow makes me full already. heh unless im hungry, then you shall be ignored and there wont even be a bone left on the plate.

10) im always on my phone. 24hours, either texting, playing games,taking pictures, listening to songs or watching youtube videos. when im out, i'll always be on my phone as well. when im walking outside, i always end up bumping into people coz' i'll be too absorbed into my phone. i think i get irritated stares everyday. lol obviously when im with someone, the phone will be put away, im not entirely addicted to it y'know
so that's my 10 random facts, what's yours? (:

23rd

2011-05-03T23:10:00.000-07:00

i vividly remember always being bullied by my brother eversince i was small. here are some of the 4 cases of him bullying me.

-when i was just a 4-year old kid, my brother and my sister bought a mini halloween makeup set. my brother started painting my face coz' he said he wanted to recreate a frankenstein look that he watched on television. i just kept silent coz' i really didnt have any say coz' he straightaway worked on my face. my whole face became his canvas and by the end of the night, i looked like a pontianak+frankenstein with a lil' mix of the chinese ghost that you watch on tellie. he got scolded by my parents.

- my brother also used to hold me by my leg while my sis held on to my hands, and they swung me round and round. till i almost vomitted. i dont know why i let myself went through all that but hey, i was only 5?

- i used to be my bro's punching bag. of course he didnt go all mohammad ali on me and really threw hard strong punches at me, but he will always punch me softly, saying that this would be useful for me in the future and he so-called taught me how to fight back. lessons were painful but he said it was for my own good just in case i met up with bad guys in the near future so, i stuck on in his lessons. which were kinda useless since im clueless about punches and stuff now.

- entered the same sec school as him. but he refused to go to school with me! told my mum that since it was the first day of school, he will walk me right up to the hall, but when we got out of the lift, he said i should walk the longer route to school, while he takes the other way! stupid bully, guess i was too uncool for him! hmph who the hell was cool in sec one hmph hmph!

Tdy, this one and only brother of mine has turned 23.
happy birthday BB! (Big Brother. or maybe Big Bully!) hehe.

ok, i know brother is not in the picture but i cant help but insert this picture in the middle, heh. &yep this was taken at USS. &yepyep, it was last year when my hair was still long.

brother acting cool as usual!

while i might have mentioned all the negative stuff at the start, all that is close to nil if i were to list down the many things he has done for me. he's always there, giving me advices on boys from a guy's perspective, he's my buddy when it comes to making jokes, i think he's the only one who understands my jokes at times and he always stands up for me if i get into a fight with my elder sis(heh).

while he doesnt show it most of the time, he's a caring brother who worries aboutt me, his stubborn sister. he worries if i start doing something stupid and if i start acting rebellious. he always puts me right back in my place if i start getting rude to people esp parents(he absolutely cant stand that). plus,he has always wanted me to do well in studies and make my parents proud. now, if i were to go on, this will be a super longg post, and im not turning this into a Biography of M.Noor Hafiz am i? hehe.

i just appreciate all the things you've done for me Abg. &i love you with all my heart. I pray that Allah will always be there, blessing you throughout your life and guiding you as well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

2011-05-02T23:51:00.000-07:00

Went to jb the other time with Yazid and we cooked spaghetti!

i really wished that both of us have a talent in cooking coz' due to our slight lacking in this area, we kinda suck at it so in the end we cooked an instant Campbell Carbonara sauce. while i love watching Nigella Express and Masterchef US, im not exactly the best chef on this entire earth or to save my face alil(heh), i've never really tried to cook up a dish so im not entirely sure whether i can cook or not. my best recipe would probably be maggi. lol, im sure anyone can cook that with their eyes closed. but, im tryingg. im taking up baking class with mummy soon! heh :P

plus, i did not exactly do the cooking for this spaghetti, Yazid did. i was busy watching the royal wedding on TV which is suuperr sweet btw. Katharine looked gorgeous in her wedding gown and William? the only thing that caught my eye about him was his receding hairline. what happened i wonder :/

anw! took some pics using my handy dandy Iphone4. no editing - too lazy, heh

my shaky picture of my personal chef in bright orange uniform, at work. hee!

meanwhile i was totally being self-absorbed,taking pictures of myself. so here's to annoy you,hehe

self-absorbed pic no.1

self-absorbed pic no.2

self - absorbed pic no. 3

im sorry if ure puking by now. lol coz i usually detest self absorbed pics of others

final product. what an unappetizing pic i know.

after the meal, was washing the dishes and look at what this guy did to me!

he put a freaking pot on my head which happened to fit perfectly with my head size. then he suggested to take a picture of this.

-.-! silly boy.
always enjoyed going to jb with the boy. esp coz we got to walk around city square mall which is zee best. i didnt know there's a mini fareast-like section in the mall until that day. while most of the stuff are cheaper than s'pore's like the shoes and all, the trousers there were 79.90RM. so it's somewhat the same as s'pore's fareast price, might as well buy here in spore!

but it's definitely a great place to go if you guys are bored of s'pore coz' i know me and yazid are! (:

anw on saturday, went to Nex at Serangoon with the family. that mall is huuuuuugee! was alil' too crowded tho'. my mood was totally affected too coz i HATE going to crowded places. but i was there with the family to buy bro's birthday present. anw his birthday is tmr! but since he's at phuket right now and couldnt celebrate his birthday with us, we celebrated it on sunday already.

i got stopped by a person working there for taking a pic of this but heck. this pic shows how crowded it was! there wasnt even a sale or anything. &oh, there's my mum in blue. heh

as you can see, if i were shopping myself, i wouldnt even bother to take all these pics but since the crowd was getting to me, and i really didnt have the mood, i was sitting down in most of the shops while the others picked out stuff. i sound like a party-pooper. oh wells.

buuut then parents decided to take us to Pizza Hut which means food! and food makes me happy! plus, i was reading a few recent posts from very popular bloggers and they said there were new additions to the Pizza Hut menu yada yada yada. so hell yeah i was looking forward to it. food definitely is a life-saver or i'll be emo_girl101@hotmail.com the whole freaking day.

Cheesy Mussels! YUMMMMMEEEEHHHH! i love mussels and i love cheese. how perfect can it get.

my pasta. it was so-so, i wanna taste the parchment pastas tho' if i were to go there the next time.

the classic spicy-sweet drumlets. you can.not leave this out when you dine in at pizza hut.

we ordered more appetizers/side dishes but i didnt bother taking a pic of each and every of it. too busy munching.

wah two men looking damn fierce.

mummy and my muscular(or fats rather) dad?

hving an iphone is so convenient. i can just take a pic and immediately upload it to photobucket but at the same time, the dslr's at home is getting wayy dusty and Yazid has been pestering me to bring it along when i go out with him the next time.

it's May already. cant believe i've entered my 5th mth without studying. how awesome. but at the same time, i seriously cant wait for sch to start!

that's all now (:

long time no see

2011-04-26T23:21:00.000-07:00

ok right. so i told myself that im not going to update this blog of mine till i secured a place in Uni. &so if you guys can probably guess by now - i got accepted into NUS fass! Alhamdulillah. im so happy, it's beyond words! i was texting and calling the loved ones when i got hold of the news,was shaking all over, shouting, hyperventilating, jumping for joy - all at the same time. i really am so grateful and thankful to everyone who was there for me since day one!

&this kinda sparked off the 'desire'(lol say whuut) in me to blog again. actually i've been writing down some bits&pieces but i kept saving everything as drafts. i was pleasantly surprised though when i saw the stats page coz' it's been over a month since i post an update but the stats show that people are still reading my blog. hee (:

now, shall i present you guys with a picture of me? dont worry i still look the same during the time i've been gone. face still intact with the exception of a freaking huge throbbing pimple who has decided to camp on my face for i dont know how long more -.-

gd night for nw! cant wait to go jb again tmr, cooking spaghetti! (:

2011-03-08T14:05:00.000-08:00

results were out last friday and im pretty satisfied with it in exception of one particular subject. though i technically still passed it, but considering that my other grades for the rest of the subjects are all pretty consistent, a slight drop in this subj is of course a bummer. BUT, no time for regrets now coz' it's time for the next step, uni! (:

before that, i ought to thank Nabilah,Haiza, XY and Steven who have constantly been there throughout the way. Alevel is seriously something that i wont ever do again simply because of the difficult process. but with these people around, the process was somewhat made easier. i may be the one among them, who always tend to skip school,skip extra classes, have incomplete assignments (thinking back, i feel like a rebel) but you guys seriously pushed me(or rather, nagged at me! hehe). without all those drilling, i'll probably get Es or something worst that will see me cry my eyeballs out. school was great coz' of you people, no kidding. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

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anw! picture uploads of karaoke session with the girls the other day!
so guess where we went for karaoke????? GEYLANG. we were so, so lost there. it wasnt near the "oh happy happy hari raya is coming buzzz" side but more of the ulu side of the entire geylang.

karaoke place was kinda eerie. HAD NO PRIVACY PLS. people were staring in. and i got pretty embarassed too coz' i was doing my "put your hands up in the air" stance unknowingly that people were peering in. when have i never put myself to shame, you tell me. -.- but since it was with the girls, and we were screaming into the microphones rather than singing, it was all fun. hehehe must.have.another.session.soon!

oh, we ate at arnolds. and i only have three words to say abt the food - IT WAS HORRIBLE. i dont know what happened coz' the last time i ate there(which was 3 years ago, lol), it was yummy hmmmm

&on sunday, had dinner at FISH with shortie-sis!

this is YUMMY. the peri-peri sauce is to die for!

the huge jug of mermaid freeze

this, i have to say, the food at FISH was triple thumbs-up.

had a birthday shopping trip with dear shortie-sis on that very sunday too. it was a total belated bdae present. and the present was, with a budget of 200bux, i could buy anything i want. I MEAN C'MON, BELATED OR NOT BELATED, WHO CARES - I LOVE TO SHOPPPP SO WHY NOT. by the end of the day, i was a happy goofball with bags and bags in my hands. love my sister soooo sooo much. somehow it's weird that we are super close when we are 5 years apart!

downside is, now i have to think of an awesome bdae present for shortie-sis :/

i know i always have really long posts. oh wells. anyhoo have an awesome week ahead people! (:

birthday week.

2011-02-28T18:20:00.000-08:00

i've not exactly been the most hardworking person on earth in updating this lil' space of mine and im really thinking of just abandoning it but looking at my old posts dating wayy back from when i was in Sec 2, i dont think i would be deleting the blog anytime soon. too precious to delete it, but i would probably update it less, like once or twice per week? during the weekends most probably.

anw since i've not been updating much, this post is gonna be pretty long.

birthday this year was on a Monday. -.- totally. i think i said this in my previous post but dude, birthday on a Monday just doesnt sound exciting. i have a thing with Mondays, in a negative way. so the family and I went to celebrate it on Sunday afternoon! &on the Sunday night itself, celebrated with the siblings, sheerah and harry at Al-Sheikh for a sheesha session.

&on my birthday itself, just a simple celebration at home with a cake and more food! i guess celebration this year was more simple and less hu-ha than last year's coz' last year we had it at the chalet and stuff. i prefer it simple tho, coz' planning a birthday party is really chaotic!

wth is wrong with my face. that's why i dont do well with candids.

this was dad's side of the grill. look at how much meat he put on the grill! my mum was screaming that my dad's high blood pressure will shoot right up coz of this.

but someone's still a happy man.

okay so there's this thing with my family. each and everyone of us stone practically every single time when we're given a chance to stone, lol. we'll just randomly zone out into our own world. even when we're doing something like eating. picture above is a classic example of both my dad and brother stoning.

here's the chief of zoning out showing u a new way to do it: put ur fork up in the air

happy birthday to us!

Tuesday - headed to JB with Yazid. loove going there on a weekday coz' place not packed, there're no traffic jams, to and fro and there're less scary looking MM leering at u(i think most of their friends are in school,lol) and did i say Yazid's condo there is zeee best, swimming pool looked so freakin' tempting! next time i shall bring swimming stuff there.

dinner was at Kenny Rogers. we were too hungry by that time, so we just gobbled down our food. heh

Thurday - so one of my birthday wishes was to meet the girls. really miss them soo much coz' it has literally been ages since we met. except for Sha since both of us do meet up quite often. but the other two girls, it's almost impossible to meet them! so when Haiza texted to meet up for dinner, i was so psyched.

we decided to have japanese food for dinner at Hei Sushi. I had the teriyaki don which tasted exactly like PJ's and which i happened to eat almost everyday in school! Haiza hated her meal,no surprise coz' she's very picky when it comes to food. heh. Mai loved her teriyaki udon, which i think wasnt tasty at all coz' of the soup. like what Haiza said, the soup is like a combination of just soy sauce and water. lol. but Sha happened to love Haiza's udon but hated her own don. ok we're a complicated bunch like that.

the soup that taste weird and the thick noodles that taste like kuih. in my opinion at least.

so that's it! i spent 2 hours on this post, waiting for the pics to be uploaded on photobucket and all. gosh. i really really do enjoy the past week & to end the week, had milkshakes from OUAM with Yazid and during the weekend, met the cousins coz' we had a family gathering. it's the best!

anw Yazid and I have a new mission now or so i say(lol), to find makan places in singapore! yay, have one in mind which cuzzy wuzzy recommended. and we're probably going to that makan place this week? yay yay any nice places to recommend me anyone? (:

i was born this way

2011-02-19T00:17:00.000-08:00

finding covers on youtube has been one of my favourite past times of late. have been searching for new covers each day. or mayb coz' i have too much free time in my hands hmmm. anw covers are sometimes much nicer than the originals. just look at KurtHugoSchneider's cover of Britney's Hold It Against Me. the cover probably made Britney squirm in shame coz' someone's singing her song so much better than herself.

anw those two above are the latest favourites. never a huge fan of Gaga but i love the lyrics of this song (Y)

I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way

update of my life:
1) birthday's coming! celebrating it this sun with family instead of mon coz' mon is sch/work/boring day. hate the fact that my bdae this yr is on a monday. hate mondays, no kidz. sheerah coming for the family celebration this sun coz' her bdae's 3 days after mine! yay.
2)teaching tuition as a favour to mum's friend. still getting paid.
3)boyf's done with his busy schedule. gonna spend more time with him. yayyyyy

2011-02-18T03:04:00.000-08:00

i made chocolate truffles the other night. &i swear it was the yummiest thing i've ever made; not that i've really baked whatmore cooked anyth before but considering that this is my first, it's really good. lol self-praise is no praise i know but i dont care!

should have taken pictures of the successful result. cant believe i learnt the recipe through youtube. gave a box of it to Yazid and he said it's addictive also! im thinking of making some more coz' i finished all of it within 4 days? &because of this, i shall embark on the path of trying out more recipes, heh.

sidetrack: im having colbie caillat's I Do on replay. such a happy happy song. reminds me of sunshines and rainbows. the kind of song that will put a smile on your face with the catchy tune.

2011-02-12T23:18:00.000-08:00

i've never been away from blogging for such a long time and it's not as if i have been busy with anyth! anyways, have been enjoying my loong break alil too much and before it gets to my head that i should slack all the way, i've decided to do something useful. after my birthday that is. heh.

i swear everytime i wanna get down to business and get serious in something, there'll always be obstacles which are pretty much set up by my ownself.

anyhoo! CNY week was aweeeesoommee.
there were pictures taken. but me is soo lazy to post up pictures for now. so u're pretty much stuck with a wordy post.
- had Wendys with Nabilah on Monday. had our usual super long meal filled with gossips and laughter. always have soo many things to tell her. cant wait for our next meetup. gonna eat at a place that i recently tried. the Teriyaki Don there is super super nice! reminds me of the school's Don. yummm.

- wednesday went to mustafa centre, siblings and i took the opportunity to stock up on basic stuff/makeup(things there are soo cheap, cant help it!) and went to watch movie with the family at a super ol'school Rex cinema in Little India that mum and dad insist on bringing us to coz it brings back nostalgic memories -.- it was basically a Family Day for the Sajalis.

- Thursday --all the cousins came overr!! it's been such a long time since EVERYONE came. &we played karaokeparty.com! addictive website i tell you.
- partied on Friday, after such a long time. Rebel was packed ttm. not going again for another few months now.
- with the boyf the whole entire Saturday till Sunday morning! <3
- fetched mum and dad at the airport + devoured the yummy nasi ayam penyet from bedok!

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this week was alil' slow tho' coz' i was sick the whole way. having a bad flu, cough and a fever's having an on-off relationship with me. really hate being sick coz' i'll turn into some cranky, grumpy old woman.

but korean dramas saved me this week. imagine me infront of the home desktop with tissues surrounding me who's still in slouchy peejays at 3pm, with hot lime juice and food.

anw! trying out a recipe tmr! hope it works out!
byebye! (:

bummer

2011-01-29T09:25:00.000-08:00

currently at work now, working half day. havent been sleeping early these days and i think its finally catching up on me now. &with no patients coming in, im feeling sleepy like hell. plus, the heavy mee soto breakfast is slowly digesting and the best thing to do when you have a full tummy is to go to sleep. gahh. i just hope i can survive till 12pm. :/

what a lazy, LAZY saturdayy

2011-01-28T01:28:00.000-08:00

picture taken through Iphone 3G

finally got my hair cut with Sheerah! went for a safe short hairstyle, coz it's been awhile since i have my hair at this short length and i dont wanna go drastically shortshort. nah mean? but the person was so nice to temporarily straighten my hair. contemplating on whether to get my hair rebonded, but i dont want it to end up looking flat and look as if it lacks volume, so i shall see first.

other than that, loving my hair short! (:

2011-01-27T04:00:00.000-08:00

to one of my very, very good friends ever, happy birthday! have a great 19th babe (:

speaking of, i miss this..,

us four ):

the past.

2011-01-25T21:19:00.000-08:00

it's one of those days.

one of those days when all i want to do is coop myself in the room and be alone. one of those days when so many things are running through my mind. one of those days when i allow myself to drown in thoughts of the past and ponder on the "what if" and "what could have" questions. rather depressing, yes. someone told me that the past bears no significance to the present. but how is it not important when the past,be it bad or good, is the exact cause to our present now. it has moulded and shaped our present. i, for one, dont exactly have a pleasant past, heck im sure everyone went through this phase of being young, immature and well, stupid - im one of them.

BUT. im grateful' because the mistakes i've done in the past is what that have made me grow stronger and it has paved way to what i am today. it's useless to regret abt the decisions you've made and and regret on things you've done coz' you have made that decision and you have done what you did. if you are still tied down with regrets of the past, well, you are trapped in a time warp.

obviously, i still am not perfect. im only 19 for god's sake. i have a long way to go, so many things to learn, new places to venture,new people to meet. so im not saying that im immune to any mistakes coz' im sure there are alot of fresh ones waiting out there for me.

but my point is, the past, while some parts of it may be painful to think about again and i dont want some of it to recur ever ever again, im grateful. grateful coz' of the lessons i've learnt from it. really am.

so when this particular someone put it in a way that the past holds no meaning to the present, i totally disagree. but with all respect to him, everyone has their opinions.
and well, this is mine.

your present is an effect of what you have done in the past. your future is an effect of what you are doing, right now.

2011-01-23T02:03:00.000-08:00

so ive moved on from my favourite Takoyaki and have found a new yummy snack to munch on! it's the deepfried twisted potato and they are selling it at the bazaar near the woodlands mrt station! there were 4 flavours to choose from - cheese, kimchi, bulgogi and another flavour which totally slipped my mind. but i chose the bulgogi flavoured one! &i loooove it! esp when it's eaten hot.

a few pple said it taste like the bbq-flavoured potato chips -.- but i find it soo nice! wanna try the kimchi flavour next.

dont mind the picture quality pls coz' it's taken through iphone and ignore my shining forehead pls. i feel as if my forehead is widening as time passes by. sheesh. anw! main focus is the twisted potato! look at how big it is! some good stuff there.

on a totally diff note, met Sharifah today and she got me hooked to this rendition of Just A Dream. one of the BEST covers ive ever heard! (Y)

a brand new week tmr! (:

tgif?

2011-01-21T23:28:00.000-08:00

just came back from marina barrage with the boyf. was supposed to go jb with him today but i woke up late and by that time, i was too lazy to head to jb.

updates:

- the moon tonight was gorgeeeeooouss. big round, shiny moon. it seemed so near that i felt as if i could touch it.

- tomorrow is going to be busy,busy. working in the morning at the old place, afternoon, lunch then in the evening - mandarin class. yep guys im learning how to speak chinese. HI DA YAH. HI is my surname. hehe

- tried out a facial mask the other night. it was supposed to socall rejuvenate my face giving off a fresh feeling(accordin' to the package), but it just looks as if im breaking out from it. gah.

- i wanna go shopping! my wardrobe needs some serious updating, no kidding.

- i kinda miss school. now that i dont go to school, my brain is kinda lagging. my blur meter has increased and it's not stopping.

im going to have an early night tonight so byebye and have a good weekend guyyyzzz (:

/edit. god, my laptop just died on me few minutes ago. luckily the post was automatically saved or else some major vulgarities will be spouted out.

/edit.2. webcam pictures turned out small coz' i use the stupid blogger thingy to upload them. photobucket wasnt being friendly to me today.

2011-01-17T16:50:00.000-08:00

so yesterday after such a long long time, i went to catch a movie at amk hub with Yazid. so this boyf of mine is not exactly the avid movie-goer coz' he says that why watch a movie when you can download it blahblahblah. but i still get to convince him to watch Burlesque with me yesterday so i got soo excited coz' i really wanted to watch the movie since i saw its posters and trailer a month back or so.

i dont usually rave or give reviews on movies but Burlesque was soooooo good! &we both really enjoyed watching it.

this movie totally confirmed the fact that Christina Aguilera has one hell of a body and awesome vocals. &the girls in the movie - some great bodies they have too which me is soooo jealous abt. plus, every minute of the two-hr movie was practically exciting, plot was super humorous as well and it was filled with great sexy dance routines&songs, so movie was definitely a thumbs-up. (Y)

&&i thought the brunette girl who played a mini role in the movie(she acted as Georgia) was sooooo pretty! &when i told Yazid i wanted to be just like her, i was replied with a -.- look. but oh wells. heh. esp liked the last song "Show what you have on Burlesque" and the slow ballad song in the middle. ((:

&nowww, with all this Burlesque semangattttzzz in me, i feel like getting the OPI burlesque collection - either the Little Teasers set or the 12pc "Shimmers" nail lacquer set. if not!! mayb the individual nail lacquers - "Simmer&Shimmer" and "Show It&Glow It". lol

second last picture above is a swatch of Simmer&Shimmer and the last one is a swatch of Show It&Glow It. gooooorgeous riteeeee. both pictures are taken from some random angmoh's blog. hehehe. yep so once again my nailcolour phase has changed again - from the pastel colour range like lavender, taupe,soft nude colours, i've switched to glittery sparkly in-your-face kinda colours. but oh wells, i change my nail colour alllll the timeeee.

so anyone, buy it for me? hehe (:

2011-01-14T13:40:00.000-08:00

y'know what, i think i should update more often since im currently unemployed and basically all i do is laze around at home or go out almost every single day. it's more of the latter tho'. which is really, really bad coz' singapore is an expensive country + im using adult fare now! im only depending on the monthly expenses mum gives me. ugh. i probably need to find a job soon but im so LAAZY!

plus, i need to start uploading pics onto this blog. i've not been taking much pics lately. except for the webcamming shizz with Yazid two days back but he's not giving me the pics. he said i should be contented with the passport photo he gave to me before i went off for my holiday the other time. -.- heh

shall i leave the post with a song that i've been loving?

a friend introduced this song to me. he just got over a breakup and is still trying to move on. eventho' how many times he tries to deny it, we both know he's just putting up a mask. no matter what, i wish you all the best A. it may be a long and difficult process,but i know you can do it. you have to! heh. all this is said coz' i know you're better and stronger than this. (:

TOP.

2011-01-11T14:30:00.000-08:00

T.O.P looked so damn freaking hot, cute and everyth nice in his photospread for High Cut magazine! *meltzz*

&need i mention that he has zeeee sexiest deep manly voice on this entire earthh.

*double meltzzz*

2011-01-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

i dont know what's stopping me this time. im not even sure why i cant seem to make the next step. i want this but something's holding me back. mayb i just dont want to repeat the same mistakes ive done in the past. mayb it's the fear of what might happen. mayb it's the phobia of rushing things through. or mayb for once, i just want things to be right, to be nice and settled. hmm to many "mayb(s)" clogging up my head right now.

mayb all i need right now is food, lots of it.

mid-hair crisis

2011-01-04T01:04:00.000-08:00

i posted this on fb but heck, i wanna post it here too, on my blog where i'm more active coz fb is getting boring -.- lol anyyyywaaaayyss..

here's the problem:
my hair looks short in this picture. &it's tempting me to cut my hair at that same exact length! should i should i should i? i dont want to go cut it then regret it later on. afterall, i've kept my hair long for 2 years now, 2 years! it's at a desired length where i can just go perm it and have bouncybouncysmacksmack(lol) kind of curls. but im kinda sick of long hair now. :/ dilemma alert. helpzzz meez.

i know im not the most active person on formspring. but i will be if you guys leave an answer or an opinion on my formspring! i need expert advice!

hahaha. sanggup eh aku.

a new year.

2011-01-02T17:00:00.000-08:00

so it's a brand new year, a new start, a new chapter.
2010 will be a year i will never forget. if i were to touch on the negative side, it would be mostly due to the stressful period of school and obviously, the As. there were losses and down moments too this year. i can say the negative outweigh the positive this year, and it's mostly due to the academic shizz.

but through all those bad moments, it helped me to mature more and look at things in a different light. anw life wouldnt be called life without all the shits right? i become more open with opinions and critical thoughts, without deeming them bullshit like i usually do and casting them away. on a much much better note, i became closer to people i never thought i would be close to, thats what all that matters (:

the last day of 2010 was a simple yet a great one. despite having to rush down from the airport and the plan was slightly cocked up coz' i missed my initial flight (loooong story), having to spend with somebody great by the beach, watching the stars during the nighttime and talk about stuff (he did most of the talking tho', haha) all the way till the first 7.00am of 2011 was awesome.

i guess as years pass by, simple spending time like this is wayy meaningful than those extravagant ones and the usual watching of fireworks. the whole thing was unplanned that it made it extra special coz' i didnt know what to expect. i had an awesome start to the first day of 2011, and without a doubt, it's the greatest one so far. (:

it's the second day of 2011, despite the exhaustion from the two holidays and im currently sick right now, this cheeky and wide grin plastered on my face just wont go away. haha

will be back with posts on the holidays.
meanwhile, happy new year guys! let's hope this year would be an awesome one for me and you! (:

2010-12-23T20:02:00.000-08:00

spent the past two days with the cuzzies.
- we went to the beach and played twister while passers-by glared at us.
- we talked about life and our future, no kiddin. some serious talk we had.
- we added new words into our vocab bank
- we acted like freaks in public. esp Adilah. i almost died while cringing of embarassment when Adilah did her "say whuuut" stance.
- im officially the noob of the three. i laughed eventho' i didnt know what the joke is about, i only get what the other party is talking about after 5 seconds, or mayb longer than that. &the list goes on -.-

i always have so much fun with these two.
now im going to be the one suffering next yr coz' it's Adilah's turn at her As and Nabilah will be busy too, with her attachment. ):

saranghae! (:

2010-12-19T22:34:00.000-08:00

i know i've been trying to avoid you, trying not to be in any form of contact with you after we went our separate ways.i know i've treated like i dont know you anymore and worst, i acted as if you never existed in my life. but when i got back home, googled back that song and read the lyrics, it struck me real hard, i didnt know that i've hurt you so much without even realising it. i didnt realise how cold and hostile i have become towards you. i thought by staying away from you, you would slowly forget me. forget what we once had. but i guess i was doing it the wrong way. i wanted you to hate me. coz' i really dont deserve all the things you've done for me. i've never appreciated you enough. i must be an idiot. you're always the one giving and me, always the one taking. never the other way round. &i still have the cheek to demand more but you stood by me, never giving up. it has been difficult and im sorry for everything, i really am. im sorry for not being the perfect one throughout our time together. but hey, there's a quote, "God will never take something away from you without replacing it with something better"

once again, im really sorry.

it's a wonder how with a simple song, a wave of realisation can hit you.i thought i could runaway from it, but i guess it was time to face the music.

friday.

2010-12-18T21:17:00.000-08:00

joke of the night

mai: i've been playing lots of games lately
hidayah: oh, you playing that game is it, maple syrup?(as usual, very confidently-.-)
mai&haiza: (started bursting out laughing non-stop)

it's supposed to be maple story not maple syrup. sorry lor, me is no gamer. i give up playing games coz' i never seem to get to the next level in ANY game. im hopeless that way :/ anw isnt maple story that 123456-yrs-ago game. i bet not much people are even playing it anymore. so yeah, you can double up the hopeless scale now.

so we went to support Sha for her performance on a Fri night. what did juuu guuuyzzzz do? (:

love.

2010-12-17T13:16:00.000-08:00

"The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn’t communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love. Love."

-some tumblr i read&forgotten the link

&on the other hand, sometimes the word 'love' is so often used in relationships and spoken of too casually and lightly, that it doesnt carry the weight that it's supposedly carries. &thus,while discussing about this, a friend and i have come to a consensus about this word called 'love'.

2010-12-15T13:24:00.000-08:00

am currently digging my WALL'S cookies&cream icecream. this stuff is DA bomb man. have to eat this every single day after every meal. yummiest cookies&cream i've ever tasted!

it's a wonder why i havent grown horizontally yet. i must have some weird high metabolism shizz going on hmmz

&if this whole thing is finished, i got 2 more waiting for me. heh

meeting time: 2pm. current time: 1.30pm. awesome. &ive not even taken my shower yet.

2010-12-13T01:22:00.000-08:00

nabilah is probably going to scream,shake her head and go on tsk-ing at me when she knows that just recently, i've bought 6 pieces of clothings, 3 rings and a pair of flipflops. coz' the exact one thing that irritates the hell out of her about me is when i spend. and when i spend, its alil over the top. & buying all these does not even require a period of 1 month or whatsoever but in a matter of just 2 days.

BUT! i didnt use my pay that i got on Friday to buy these things. so i still have $$$ for Holiday! &i really do like the things i bought. i feel as if im trying to justify my purchases but heck, the clothes are hung in my cupboard and my new rings are already stored with the other rings i have. so, no room for regrets. heh.

went out with the sisters and Mama today.
Mama has been really lonely these days, what with Dad being at Syria and Brother just got back from Surabaya. so the women except for Huda who's still a kid, went out to eat! coz' everyone knows that food will help to cheer one up when they're feeling down, no?

let's look at the case of a girl who has not eaten for 123456 years so when her eyes set upon her chilli lobster pasta, she turned into a pig. i got called "perangai budak gemok" for this,heh. anyhoots, the pasta was yummmeh! (:

sorry if i look so passionate and eager to feast on this pasta, esp with that mouth of mine. stop it eh eh eh. &yep,that's the end of the piggie case.

"what a perfect sunday!" said Mama

&yep, it definitely is (:

photobooth

2010-12-08T20:48:00.000-08:00

thumbs up for ugly photos! (Y) (Y)

- im currently obsessed with chapsticks. i have to put it on every half an hour at my working place.

- im currently reading Dorothy Koomson's Icecream Girls which i got for 20% off at Popular. book's aye-okay so far. but im reading it pretty slowly than i usually do - like slow slow, one page a day slow.

- i just received a parcel of the blouse i got from the fleamarket with Adilah. love new clothes ((:

-im currently missing Daddy who has been away for 3 days now. ):

-im currently excited for the end of the week coz' i'll be ending my short stint at Gleneagles and i'll be richer too by friday. (:

- have been spending alot of time with an old pal. we know each other for the longest time, but it was only up till recently tht we started talking alot. (:

-my stomach is currently growling coz' i havent eat my dinner. ):

whoa whoa whoa. too many emoticons going around up there.

bye now.

2010-12-05T10:00:00.000-08:00

saya suka!

quickie.

2010-12-04T09:00:00.000-08:00

i know i have not been updating much lately.
i've been soo busy outside, with work and all.
&believe it or not, on a saturday morning, im at work right now. luckily it's just half-day.

this week has its ups and downs. i wouldnt want to touch on its downs coz' it's over and it's all good now. this week, i've grown to hate some people and i've come to realise that these people are a bunch of hypocrites who are seriously not worth my time. &these people are those whom i've known for quite some time. i guess i dont really know them afterall or that they've been putting up a mask all this while. but on a good note.. i've grown to really,really like some other people(:

so i would like to think, or believe rather, that i have had an awesome week coz' of friday night.

can you believe how much i;ve gone through this whole week?
i'll come back with a better post, a post where i can sit down comfortably somewhere and type it all out, without having to worry about my supervisor checking up on me.

meanwhile, have a great weekend guys!

weekend delight.

2010-11-30T02:08:00.000-08:00

because of the great weekend, i nearly forgot that today(or ytd. since it's 2+am right now) was my first day of work. im totally shagged right now but nevermind, gonna have to save up money for BANGKOK.

anw job's just for 2 weeks and it's good pay so i cannot.give.this.up.
unless someone wants to give me money or money starts falling down from the sky.
i swear you'll be on my radar for the rest of my life.

anw, saturday - had a major chillout session with adilah.
we went from one place to another place in town just to sit down and catchup. there were so many things to catch up on. in just a period of like, 2/3 mths, so many things have happened, be it in my life or hers. it was a big reflection moment for us both and as we share stories with each other, i felt that somehow, some way, it was not only to justify our past actions but also a way to console ourselves for what we did. but after the "therapy session" (heh) i felt that a load of burden had been taken off my shoulder.

so we've decided to put everyth to the past and not think about it. coz' it's not worth our time, at all. as much as we had lotsa fun, we miss NABILAHCUZZYWUZZY badly! ): meet us soon babe ):

then we went on to arab st. to meet up with sis, sheerah and the rest. the pics are up on fb (:

i should go to sleep now. cant look all weary tmr for work.

2010-11-26T16:14:00.000-08:00

my sister from another mother came over today to watch Lagenda Budak Setan.

btw, are we the only ones on this face of the earth that havent watched it yet? seems that im way behind time on almost everyth. have not been a big fan of malay movies coz' the plots always seem to be the same, but alot of people did say that the movie's good, so why not!

but wells, the movie was kinda good i guess, there were some touching scenes. but i seriously think the Amelia girl cant act. her face has no expression at all and her voice, monotonous. but but! Fazura is soo pretty. have always liked her since i saw her in Gol&Gincu

one of the turning points in the movie.

i seriously cannot watch ANY movie with Nabilah anymore. she laughed during all the sad parts and even during the violent part - when the husband was beating the wife, she also laughed. in the end, i didnt even know whether the movie was a comedy or a romantic story.

i love you anyhows babe

coz if i dont love you, no one wants to love you hehehehehe

2010-11-25T13:02:00.000-08:00

let's see what am i going to do today
- watch Bad Girls Club series on yt
- watch the beauty gurus on yt also
- at 3pm, go get ready to meet Shadarling (i cant wait to see your hair in person!)
- 5pm, meet the rest for dindin at arab st.

anw, the picture above - which is which? is marykate the left one or right?

believe it or not, i've been trying to figure that out for the past 20 mins by just staring at the pic but to no avail. hmmm

hally podder.

2010-11-24T23:06:00.000-08:00

finally. i've FINALLY watched harry potter and the deathly hallows with mama and huda just now. i'm not going to say that this movie is freaking awesome nor am i going to give two thumbs-up to this movie, coz' honestly, i didnt think it was that good. i've watched all the harry potter movies and by far, this is my least favourite. i am looking forward for the final movie though.

what i noticed during the movie:
1) hermione is super gorgeous! and since she was on the cover of Seventeen and Cleo, i bought both mags

2) voldermort is fgly. he looks like a freaking squid.
3) the rupert guy has a built body. not bad. not bad at all. but i really cannot take his face.

4) harry potter has hair on his chest. major ew.

5) harry potter/daniel radcliffe rather, CANT dance. like srsly, if he's in a club and he started dancing, everybody will be like "whuuuuuuuut" nah mean?

6) voldermort is ugly. or have i mentioned that?

kay you harry potter fans dont start hating on me now

2010-11-24T12:20:00.000-08:00

i was walking back home just now and i saw an old man in one dark corner, shirt unbuttoned, his pants zipped open, he was looking straight at me and then i realised, he was masturbating himself.

WTF. sheesh,dirty ol' man, go and die lah

because of people with perverted minds like you, the world never seem to be safe.

done and over.

2010-11-24T02:35:00.000-08:00

so im back after 1000 years.

i thought after being away from blogging for so long, i would have a million things to say or to complain about. but surprisingly, i absolutely have nothing to say other than the fact that im probably the most excited girl on the entire earth right now.

i feel as if i've been liberated and free from all this academic shizz, something which i've been waiting for since january! &i have soo many post-exam plans that i wouldnt even start listing down every single one of them coz' it's neverending.

one plan in particular that i really cant wait for would be the one at the end of the year - BANGKOK!

anw,i've totally lost touch with the internet. i didnt even know that you can even chat with your friends when you're checking your inbox mail. so when an influx of people started chatting with me on hotmail, i literally went "coooooool". plus, im probably the most inactive member on fb. but to think about it, i kinda can live without fb.

it's 2.30am and i probably should go sleep now. lunching with mama and huda at jurong point tmr. bye nowz

HIATUS.

2010-10-17T21:34:00.000-07:00

tomorrow, it's officially gonna be three weeks to my As.

wish me luck guys and pray that i'll pull through the most toughest exam im going to sit for in my entire life. Insyaallah.

will back on the 23rd of Nov.

2010-10-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

long overdue. have been really really busy with school. the big As are in a month's time. so im most probably going on a hiatus pretty soon. :s

and since it's 7+am on a sunday morning and i cant get back to sleep coz' dad entered the room and purposely woke me up -.- , i shall post up the leftover pics from last saturday. (:

Yus friend, Ah Pui.

i know at this point you'll probably notice that all the pictures are really tourist-like.

dont mind the miss Pon head there. when i was looking back at the pictures, i realise how scary it is with some head popping out in a picture. the best part was, this mannequin had her hair combed by another mannequin-woman. when i saw them, i literally jumped back alil. scary much.

i look pretty darn tired here. oh wells.

beautiful short display of fireworks from Sounds of the Sea.

a perfect way to end the night. (:

i've been pretty sick lately, i feel as if there's a whole pool of phlegm down my throat and my nose is constantly dripping(hehe). ugh.

-edit- i was changing the date for this post, and i realise it's 10/10/10! nice date, and it also means 29 more days to As. ):

happy birthday Yus! (part 1)

2010-10-04T02:12:00.000-07:00

celebrated Yus birthday at Sentosa two days ago,on Saturday.
it was so so so soo much fun!

started off with Luge, then the Skyride, Luge again!(coz' it's super fun), then Skyride(coz' we wanted to see the sunset,heh), followed by Images of S'pore Museum, then at night - Songs of The Sea.

we were acting like total tourists who know nothing about Singapore the whole day. and since we were surrounded by pools of tourists from around the world, we attempted to fit in and speak an accent which by the way, was a total FAIL. everyone knew we were from Singapore. -.-

important thing was, the birthday boy had fun!
hes more happier now of coz' since i got him a GShock watch. -.- haha.

the boy who just turned a year older.

our Lamborghini, Mercedes,Ferrari. (;

i seriously look like a dork-just-learning-how-to-ride-a-bike here. just look at that dorky smile.gahh.

one of the instructions before taking the luge ride. major -.-

then the skyride! didnt take much pictures here. coz' im afraid of heights and i dare not even lift a finger during the ride, so i practically stayed still and smiled stiffly to Yus the whole way. heh. but hey, we made friends during the ride!

more pictures next post.
im too tired noww.
gdnight everybody! (:

self-reflect.

2010-09-25T23:55:00.000-07:00

so at 8.30pm, i was munching on my massive burger with double 135gram meat patties sloshed with cheese on top from Botak Jones and watching charlie's angels on channel 5.

Besides wondering how the hell demi moore did a sommersault and had a perfect landing with heels,.. there were alot of questions running through my head. mayb im being paranoid. mayb i think too much. mayb whatever is going on now is clogging up my brain, so i refuse to think in a logical manner.

i suddenly felt as if my brain's gonna explode and im gonna break down anytime soon. no guys, it's not about school. i mean, not just school. coz' everyone seems to think im going insane about school. nah, as stressful as school can be, nothing can be compared to the ginormous whirl thats happening in my head right now. i feel like slapping myself sometimes, for allowing myself to be trapped in my own delusions.

it's exhausting mentally. that all i wanna do is slog around like a pig at home, slump myself on the sofa and watch taiwanese drama the whole day on channel 855. i remember receiving that msg in the morning, i felt like my heart was crumbling and someone just stepped all over it.

i kept on saying to myself "gosh girl, get a hold of yourself. get your act together."

but whatever i do is the exact opposite!

then i realise it's 9.30pm. charlie's angels just ended.

and my mind?

it's still in a mess.

2010-09-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

just alil' more Hidayah.

all you need to do now is be patient and persevere.

sisters.

2010-09-18T11:10:00.000-07:00

2010-09-16T13:24:00.000-07:00

im having my prelims and it sucks sucks sucks sucks BIG TIME. i feel like dying. UGH.

anw, i just realised i havent wished everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA.
i still rmb those times when i sent like a super long personal msg to all my close frens wishing them 'selamat hari raya'. seemed like i had so much free time in the past. i wish i didnt waste so much time in the past. now im cramping everyth in a short period of time. my brain's gonna burst soon.

2ne1 came out with 3 new songs. LOVE it. the tune's stuck in my head.
and in the video below, CL's and Park Bom's HAIRRRRR is the shizzzzz mannn.
my hair, on the other hand, is currently in a mess. it's to the extent that birds might mistake my hair as their nests.but seriously, i really dont bother

k i know i sound alil' off and kinda psychotically depressed.
COZ I AM. besides that, im deprived of having my 8hour sleep coz' huda keeps singing every night from 11pm all the way to 1am and it's irritating the toots out of me. it's like a nightly disease if that makes any sense. gosh.

kayyy, i need to sleep. and therapy.
byeeez.

2010-09-08T20:19:00.000-07:00

looking through fb with Huda beside me.
i clicked on a picture of a girl and her boyf.

then Huda said,
"muke laki ni eh. act Jay Chou sey."
(this guy's face ah. step Jay Chou)
with a disgusted tone.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
so funny. and i swear that really lifted my mood alil'

LOVE YOU BABYHUDAA! (:

and since she's sitting beside me, she just smirkily said "i noe"
-.-

2010-09-06T10:15:00.000-07:00

went for the last day of Comex at Suntec City yesterday and besides buying another tv for the house -.- which is kinda redundant i think but Mum says at least now there's another tv for her to watch Jelita from, another -.-

daddy also bought us thisssss!
Sony Alpha550 dslr!!!!

so the whole night yesterday, went alil crazy and start taking pics of every single lil thing. still playing around with it though coz there're many things to learn about taking nice pics.

but anw my point is, i love the new camera! (:
thx daddyyyyy!

2010-08-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

best i ever had? times like this, i feel a sense of regret. i hate this feeling.

but it's okay, coz' tmr i'll be okay again.

twitter-worthy.

2010-08-29T12:02:00.000-07:00

what i've been thinking about for 5 minutes.

1 minute for every single thing.

-was browsing through my fave online shop under the men's section, was so tempted to buy 2 shirts for Yus. just coz' the hot korean model looked good in it. heh.

- so jealous, it has only been 3 days after my bro got his bike's license, and dad is buying him a bike. so he's getting it in 2 weeks time or so? lucky bugger.

- i dreamt that i had a big meal of LJS and my frozen yoghurt. eversince that frozen yoghurt booth came to my school on Wed, i cant stop thinking about frozen yoghurt! gahh.

- im watching one of the youtube's beauty gurus' video right now. but instead of looking at her face, im looking at her cleavage, it looks as if it's gonna spill out anytime soon, i swear.

- hari raya is coming. the people in school have been singing the songs already. but why am i not even feeling a tinge of excitement?

mayb i should have a twitter. i seem to have something to say every single minute now and then.

Miranda Kerr

2010-08-22T10:53:00.000-07:00

by far, this australian-born is my favourite model other than Chanel Iman.
other than the fact that she's freaaking goooorgeous with awesomely nice dimples and blue eyes(lol, i sound psychotic) ,she's currently pregnant with her husband's baby, Orlando Blooom. so yep, that's gonna be one hot baby.

"It is sad to see anyone neglecting their body no matter who they are and what they do. You simply cannot be healthy or look great on the outside if you are not healthy on the inside."
- Miranda Kerr

2010-08-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

im a nerd nerd nerd.

i can honestly say that i've been studying.

but i reaaaaallly dont know whether im progressing and whether what im doing is enough.

anw meet my nerdy study-partner.

dont know what i'll do without her. she'll always perk me up with her out-of-the-world jokes whenever i feel down. a friend that i can sit down with, have serious talks, share about our 'lifelong' stories and share secrets. a friend that i can laugh with. a friend that gives good, mature advice coz' you guys know how i can be at times, lol.

i learnt and is still learning alot from her. i can really say, that she's one of the very unique friends i ever have. thank you babe! (:

and this is me now.

currently with bad dark circles, dry hair, pale skin.

not a lovely sight i tell you.

especially now, coz' i have a freaking' huge zit on the centre of my forehead. W-T-_

plus, this is totally out of topic but.i've been really short-tempered these days.

i get angry at every single lil' thing and i get too sensitive over stupid things.

why why why i dont know why.

anw i just checked out my formspring and lol, there're so many qns unanswered.

totally forgot about my formspring and thus basically abandoned it.

will answer it soon.

2010-08-17T05:08:00.000-07:00

my babysis is a pig.

after our break-fast, she went on to eat Giant Stick and Meiji's Yoghurt and currently she's facing me munching on some junk again.

someone pls tell her that fasting month is not equal to nomnom time.

-.-

speaking of which, i want Yami Yoghurt,heh

btw im extreeeemely busy during the weekdays.

so i'll probably just blog during the weekends and mayb blog alil' nonsense on a weekday if im bored. byeeeez.

2010-08-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

i just typed a whole post on someone that i'm really really really annoyed with.
i told nabilah the other time that i dont usually hate a person but if someone does things like she did, you're just asking for it, no?
and. trust me. it usually takes a loong time for someone to get into my bad books. coz' im not a bitch who goes hating on everyone like she does.

but anw, i decided not to publish it coz im sensible enough and i dont want to waste the space on my blog on someone like that. nor would i want to waste anyone's time reading about that person.

see how nice i am.
gosh, if everyone was like me, there'll be world peace.

song-of-the-moment.
no adilah, it's not korean.

"When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change'

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile

The whole world stops and stares for a while

'Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are"

(chorus)

school shizz

2010-08-13T20:12:00.000-07:00

down with the condensed timetable next week. school end latest at 2.30pm.

one month from now - prelims.

after prelims - grad day

after grad day - study break.

after study break - a levels.

after a levels - burn all notes and uniform and run around the neighbourhood naked.

oh, and dedicate my december for a whole month of sleeping.

syiiiooooookkkkkkkk. cant wait.

but again, it's still three months more to big As. ):

2010-08-10T14:31:00.000-07:00

i had the weirdest national day celebration ever yesterday.
went over cuzzy wuzzy's house in b.panjang to 'study' but we ended up goofing around, youtubing, watching stupid videos which only adilah laughed at(i swear it's not funny) and adilah kept on asking me to shut up coz' i kept on responding to the the videos.

example:
video person: okay so you can get this at forever 21
me: oh ya ya ok forever 21

i did that for about 1h++.
then around 7+ went on to city hall with Yus and the rest to catch the fireworks, followed by supposedly bowling but super many many people there so we ended up going arab st for supper.
i went home super shagged which is freakin' weird coz i baredly did anything at all. zzzzzz
some pictures below which are not at all from the 'national day celebration'. lol
i just feel like putting up pictures.
these are from the outing with the siblingsss.

omg. im still so soo tired. gosh.and is it me or the weather is so freaking hot today.im sweating in my peejay. hah yeap it's 2.40pm and i've not showered yet.

saturday night.

2010-08-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

on saturday went out with these three below. a total random plan. coz' someone was mopping around town alone, and since im soo nice, i came down and totally rescued her! hahaha

anw my hair is in a mess in a few pictures.
my hair's getting really long and thick and im too lazy to do anyth to it.
mayb i should just shave everyth and be botak. i mean bald heads are really useful esp with the weather here in singapore. tsk.

oh ya, me and adilah are in most of the pictures coz' we totally took over harry's camera. like totally, no kiddingxsxsxs.

happy national day everybodyyy (:

family love.

2010-08-01T12:00:00.000-07:00

i love my cousins. each and everyone of them.
got to meet them when adilah moved house yesterday. even bro and abg sadiq who are always missing in action were there.

nothing can beat the love you get from your family and closest relatives.

oh holla, it's August!

2010-07-19T17:26:00.000-07:00

hi. im Hidayah
i love to stone. i snort when i laugh. i love talking/mumbling/giggling to myself. i love to laugh at weird people but im pretty weird myself too. i love drinking bubbletea, can drink it all day all night. i love asking the weirdest, most random qn, like "why is the sky blue? why is the grass green?" i mean havent you guys thought about it?

i always imagine that im acting in a music video each time i listen to my mp3 esp when im in 187 taking the busride home, listening to an emo song, looking out of the window. wah! perfect scene in a drama, no? i always dream of having a hot Korean boyf whose hair would probably be nicer and softer than mine and his skin would probably be more flawless as well. that would make me feel kinda inferior of course but i dont care.

i hate maths. oh wait, i think everyone knows this coz' i've been declaring my hatred for the subject eversince sec 2.

im sitting for my As this year and guess what? it's scaring the shit out of me! i barely felt a thing for Os but this? O-M-Geeee. i really wanna do well of course. who doesnt? it's a "make it or break it" kind of situation though. so that really adds on to the load.

well then..i think i should stop rambling nonsense and do something more useful.
like eating.
bye now.

wedgies.

2010-07-14T19:53:00.000-07:00

i've calculated. all these cost at least SGD 7000.
so how? anyone willing to buy it for me?
one pair at least......?

2010-07-14T16:05:00.000-07:00

when are you two coming?
i've waited for two weeks already.
this is what i hate about online sprees - the waiting time
TSK

2010-07-12T20:30:00.000-07:00

will you blame me if you knew what happened?
will you ignore me if you knew the truth?
will you understand my actions?
will you understand the position i'm in?

will you be the one who'll be by my side when im down?
wil you be one of those bitches who'll laugh as i crumble under all this stress?
will you stand up for me if someone bitches about me?
or will you be someone who simply keeps a facade?

how long will you stay this time?
how long can you keep up with all these excuses and 101 reasons?
havent you snap back into reality yet?

will you open up your eyes and see what's really happening?
will you finally realise that it's impossible?
will you accept this fact?
or will you continue on with this neverending cycle?

call it monday blues. wtv

jaybeee.

2010-07-10T00:55:00.000-07:00

so yep, went for a lil' getaway to JB on Saturday with Yus, Bro and Sheera. i guess this would be one of my last outings before i really have to sit down and just concentrate on my As. but this, being one of those last ones,it was soo much fun! it was worth waking up early at 9am on a Saturday morning and waiting at the long long line for the bus.

lunch. old-school tailor shop. shopping. shopping shopping. Kenny Rogers for dinner. so that was basically it. oh, we even stopped by Yus 2nd house in JB. finally got to see his house. ate durian there. not a great fan of it, neither was Sheera but it was apparently the complete opposite for the two guys. -.-

even the weather was nice to us today. it wasnt extremely hot nor was it raining heavily. gd job mr weather.

below: outside the oldschool tailorshop. Sheera and Bro went for their measurements.

below: Yus' house has a longan tree at his backyard!!!
apparently all three of us were so excited about it. no idea why. i think coz' we see buidings in Singapore all the time, that we dont even know how a longan tree look like.

below: Kenny Rogers. dinner was (L) and (Y).

awesome saturday! (:
come quickly November. i want more saturdays like this. ):

byebye now.
have to wake up early tmr. zzz

2010-07-08T20:42:00.000-07:00

i just had the stupidest fight with my mum.
we were quarreling over angelina jolie, jennifer aniston and who out of those two deserves brad pitt more. she sided the former while me, the latter. -.-
this is friggin' stupid coz' we are fighting over three people who we dont even know personally and Jennifer aniston would probably not even care if i sided her,neither would Angelina Jolie.

so how stupid is this again? YOU tell me -.- -.- shoot me now.

as tough as it gets, i will wait for that time to come.
not an easy job especially for a person who hates waiting.

double shoot me someone. haizzzzz

u gotta love this.

2010-07-05T12:45:00.000-07:00

so it's official.
most of the songs in my playlist are k-pop.
i dont even have any freakin' idea what's the latest english hits in town.

anw
fave song for the moment!
awesome dancing and the clothes they wore in this mv are really pretty.

wedding.

2010-07-04T22:09:00.000-07:00

the thing i really look forward to when i go to a wedding would be seeing the bride. besides the fact that they look awesomely gorgeous in their bridal costumes with their faces prettily-made up, i guess it's really their innerself that brings out that glow on their faces. and when you go up to them, they give off this happy aura as if life will be perfect now that they've found their soulmate..

then it makes me go into fantasy-island mode for a minute and i'll wonder how my wedding would be like.

the thing that i dont look forward in a wedding? bad karaoke. gosh. really felt like smacking them. but it's a happy ocassion. so i continued listening to it with a strained smile on my face, all while my ears were bleeding.

p/s i know the last photo is pretty random. but dont you just love my stupid sis' shoes??!!!!

2010-07-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARIFAH RAIHANAH!
i might be meeting you less now(blame the As) and i might not be there physically when you need me but you know i love youuuu and im always a phonecall away. (:

anw talking about Shasha, it reminds me of a conversation we had on the phone on Fri.

Sharifah: around 4 like that i think the interview would end already. so i'll reach wdl quite early.
Me : oh okaykay, but where's your intercourse?
Sharifah: DID YOU JUST SAY INTERCOURSE? (lauughin like crazy)
Me : huh! no i didnt! where got!
Sharifah: you did! you said intercourse!
Me : oh really ah r u sure HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

super epic. apparently i said intercourse instead of interview.
like whuuuuuuuuuuuuut.
okay.

happy birthday once again Sha!
bye guys

2010-07-03T12:45:00.000-07:00

first of all, it totally sucks that Brazil lost. coz the netherlands players are plain douchebags. they totally played a dirty game and they were lucky that they even got that first goal. im soo sad. i dont feel like watching WC anymore ): i guess im supporting Argentina now. Messi!

secondly, it sucks that most papers ended yesterday while i still have TWO freakin' papers on wednesday. yes, WEDNESDAY. ugh. well, at least i have 4 days to revise right.. no what am i saying, this totally sucks.

thirdly, MET UP WITH MY BABIEEEES YESTERDAYYY!!!!!! had dinner at Breeks. we seem to be always eating at Breeks everytime we meet up.-.- anw i seriously miss all four of us being together. everyone's so busy nowadays esp me, haiza and mai, with the As coming up and all ):

but seriously, being with them totally made me forget that i have As coming up and all the problems i have. they are great like that. dont know what i'll do without them in my life!

the main motive why we met up was of course to have an advanced birthday dinner for sharifah. turning 18,holla! entering the legal group with me and haiza. after 5 months. hahaha.

with them, i know everyth's gonna be alright. and only to them, i can proudly shout out like a 5 yr old lil' kid to their friends, "friends forever!" (:

happy advanced bdae babygirl!

dilemma

2010-06-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

paper tomorrow in the aftnoon.
watch brazil match at 2.30am later?
match will end at 4.30am, time that i'll probably wake up at: 12.30pm or later.
the later i sleep, the later i wake up. paper at 2.00pm.

so yes, no?
brazil my all-time fave team ok
you guys wouldnt want to know how many times i jumped on my couch when they were having that match with Portugal. but i kinda cheated Brazil coz' i kept on looking at Cristiano Ronaldo. damn handsome cannot help it.

gosh.
how awesome is the exam period, dont you just looove it -.-

formspring.

2010-06-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

school's reopening! which means midyrs are here.
first paper tmr. gosh.

anw. formspring ans (:

which is one of your girlfriends you would want to get stuck in an elevator with?
haha. i have no freakin' idea! can i have all my girlfriends stuck together with me? it will be soo much fun that wayy. haha

thanks for the post ida...gonna miss ur craps n funny faces...:):)
(:

Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?
comitted relationship. dating a whole lot of different people can be...tiring. hahaha.

What's your dream car?
volkswagen or minicooper(in blue or yellow). SOMEONE BUYY FOR MEE

What would your perfect day look like?
everyth has to start off with the perfect weather. then watching the sunset followed by a small picnic under the stars by the beach with music playing in the background. (:

hidayah got cute abs!! :)
hahaha. look carefully. abs? only in a million yrs i think. haha.

do you judge a person by their looks?
sometimes you cant help it. i mean it's human's nature. i try hard not to though (:

4-1

2010-06-17T22:18:00.000-07:00

shit. never knew i would say this but i've turned into a soccer fanatic.
dad shouldnt have subscribed to the WC channel, like seriously.
anyhoo, ARGENTINA WAS ROCKING THE SHIT mann just now.
&is it me, or is Maradona so effing cute?!! reminds me of humpty dumpty - round and short.

anw sidetrack,
wondergirls new song.
didnt like it when i first listened to it. but it's okay after awhile.

reminder to self: dont sit beside Mama when watching soccer match on tv coz' she's constantly screaming and hitting you. let Huda sit beside her. lol

sheesh, i really think a blue-black is developing on my arm.
i can just feel it.

guess who's back.

2010-06-16T23:44:00.000-07:00

woke up at 2+pm coz' i caught the Brazil match at 2+am.
and i just realised how loud i can scream yesterday.
and how deafening it can get eventho there are only 3 girls screaming at the top of their lungs. it can bring the whole block down mann. lol damn enthusiastic or what.
and now mum's screaming watching some other WC match. -.-

anw Yus got me the most niceeee-smelling Dewberry body lotion in the entire world. have been finding for this scent since like, forever. and he got me an Escada perfume. both from KL. :D

mum bought me a Guess perfume also.
i have a feeling all of them give me perfumes coz' either i smell bad or i really really stink. told Yus this and he gave me a -.- look. lol. i think my imagination too wild already.

ok now. off to bed.